i think it only looks like her when you look at it from a sideways angle and you have to squint and be a little hungover. maybe i will paint over it.
i had a dream about gabbly chat last nite i don’t know why.
re: my gchat nickname NERDBREATH
Phil: have you been sucking off nerds?
me: hahahahaa i was going to blow u last nite but then i got tired and couldnt stop reading cracked
Phil: blow me awake you mean
me: AHHAHAHHAHaHHAHAHHA yes but did u get how i responded with i was going to blow YOU after you asked if i was sucking off nerds GET IT I JUST CALLED YOU A NERD WITHOUT ACTUALLY CALLING YOU ONE
Phil: yes i get it seinfeld
me: i am the dis doctor i am going to start dressing like seinfeld im going to go buy a 400 dollar leather jacket and get wal-mart reeboks and fluff my hair
Phil: start? you already talk like him half the time
now that i am a million per cent certain that i am a loner at the top i have plenty of time for slaying guitar hero 2 i have progressed quite far in it in a very small amount of time and i am way better now, lise, look out.
met up with fil after the game and i sang who will save your soul and i nailed it and everyone was all THIS IS GOOD and YOU SOUND LIKE JEWEL little do they know that’s one of our go dad songs. we haven’t had practise in a long time, after the new year when shit settles i’m hoping we will.
before i sang, the karaoke guy made a zoloft joke, i dunno why i haven’t punched him yet prolly cos i think it’s sad he feels the need to zing me as part of his karaoke repertoire EVERYFUCKINGTIME dude i get it you want to fuck me now just be normal please.
hey remember my post about yul’s flat face and how i thought he was the guy from tokyo drift? well duh he won survivor it’s nice to see that intellect beats stupid and that’s funny coming from me, intellectual genius 2006.
Sabrina: i never really show it i am not even sure why i put it up i will avoid looking at my blog till i have 15 posts eat it away so i will be posting like mad
Sabrina: seriously, what the fuck is wrong with people
me: losers they read blogs of people who do morally subject things so that they can judge them but really they wish they could be yer friend and know that you would reject them so theyre pre-rejecting you im smart
Sabrina: hahaha. you are. but you are fucking used to that shit
me: it still affects me like winning these faggy blog awards have been pretty anti climactic and then on top of that i am getting nasty comments like fuck people just be normal
Sabrina: why would they be normal when they can have all sorts of shitty negative attention
me: i dont understand who wouldnt be embarrased by that kind of attention like LOOK at you look at all yer online judgements and opinions just start a fucking book club and GO AWAY
Sabrina: hahahahhaa
me: and im not saying that to be haha or mean i mean it, they need an outlet other than going to people’s web journals and SAYING IT LIKE IT IS quite sad
Sabrina: the way i see it, i blog ebcause i like to and people enjoy it or they dont which is fine but if you are reading it and enjoying any part of it–then why the fuck bother me? becuase as i see it you owe me for taking all my shit in
Sabrina: i am not saying i even have the best blog, or a great blog–all i am saying is respect the fact that it is something i am working on even if it fucking sucks. please just stop reading
me: yeah but then they get obsessed and cant remember if they like u are hate you they are just obsessed and cant stop so the more u go on like nothing bothers you they feel like they should be he-man and be able to control or stop you
Sabrina: ugh. you’re right. mostly though. i just ignore them, block them and they give up.
XMAS PRESENT Yo Raymi my ex bf has a mega crush on you for part of my xmas present to him I would love it if u could email him to holler and throw some prraaaps. He’d probably blow his load. his names Andy, his email is ************** If u could do this that would be rad! Pce Laura
hi andy someone told me to merry xmas you so i am writing hello it’s good timing cos i am in the middle of an emo moment right now and i have zero friends but yet i am ruler of the internet sigh ok i have friends but they are all too busy for me tonite right now i am eating a single serving thai kitchen noodle soup thing i only eat once a day anyway it will likely not be enough base for all the booze i plan to drink tonite fil is going to a leafs game i gave up my ticket a month ago to him in order to get him to stay out an extra hour with me in hindsight it was not worth it cos he complained the whole time and buzzkilled me by pointing out the time every four minutes so after my soup i will play guitar hero 2 then blowdry my hair and put on make-up fix myself a vodka coke play more guitar hero then go buy some wine or go to a nothing bar and drunk text my friends very glamorous
this is the longest email i have written in a long time you should sell it on ebay
Sabrina: haha that warms my heart when we take the new one i will send it to you my mom will have to take like 4 so that we all look human
me: haha did we have the conversation yet where i accuse your sister of actually being your daughter?
Sabrina: no we can have that because she is totally my MINI
me: ok well is she
Sabrina: nope
me: liar
Sabrina: hahaha
me: ok fine but you are brainwashing her into being you
Sabrina: it is sort of cool to have her as my sister cause it makes me realize i actually like and want kids because she is super close to being mine i totally am
me: and yer mom doesnt care?
Sabrina: we are all sort of fucking weird we just give her the option of testing shit out to be who she wants to be and when she is a shit–we put her back into line we call her Jenny when she is fucking rotten and call that her alter ego and she gets mad and then we make her read and she is like NOOOOO
me: hahahahhaa
Sabrina: so then we tell her we are going to write shitty stories about how she smells or something so she tries to hurry up and write one about how we are disgusting or something and she will be like HOW DO YOU SPELL VOMIT?
me: hahahha do u tell her that u will write it on the internet u guys are mean
Sabrina: then she will draw a picture that looks remarkably like a picasso and you are suppose to be insulted
me: im going to use that on my mom
Sabrina: hahaha
me: except it wont work
Sabrina: if i want to fuck my mom’s day up all i tell her is that she is being a bitch because she is jealous as hell that we all look like her 25 years ago but i don’t do that anymore because i do not want her to hang herself but i did he when i was like 15 because i am a shitty ass, manipulative person
me: ok fils stepdad tod super cool guy welsh etc his daughter goes to vancouver moves there 5 months ago or something we havent seen her in a year anyway im also wasted everytime we are at family dinner sundays everyone is on red wine and lots of it so he tells this story of how he goes to visit her and as the boat is taking him over to vancouver island he gets up on the front of it titanic styles and hanna sees him coming and busts up crying omg im crying right now anyway i told that story to my friend lise a month ago and busted up crying like tears FLEW out of my eyes horizontally
merkley???: you love that story
me: and then last nite i told the story to tod about me telling his story to my friend and then i exploded into tears again
merkley???: wow emo
me: and then fils sister and bf are like why is she crying they thought it was something serious and so i explained why i was crying and then i STARTED CRYING AGAIN like ugly cry i think it was hangover booze emotions
merkley???: wow
me: anyway i am never ever ever telling that story ever fucking again
merkley???: yeah and you are looping too
me: it is the equivalent of oprah and starving children and aids and puppies
merkley???: the fact that you have cried before makes it more
me: makes it more sad? i get way too involved in other peoples emotions
merkley???: no just easier to cry again
me: right well it’s the mental imagery of the story and the bond between hanna and tod oh god im misting up so fucking gay
merkley???: ha i’m from a family of cryers so it’s nothing new
me: well if i ever become an actress and i need to cry i can just think of that story
merkley???:exactly
me: i get embarrassed sometimes
merkley???: which compounds it
me: exactly
merkley???: i could make my sister cry just by mentioning that she cries easily
