lol psyche! not the freedom 250 that you are thinking of exactly BUT it’s day 250 no alcohol today so we can say it’s freedom from that, lul. and let’s be so fr the title is an SEO grab so let it ride.
I am trying to think of if I have ever done something else for 250 days before. Do jobs count? Lol. fuck they should, I guess so, from a resume perspective. Speaking of which, I am so LinkedIn checked-out but I have a souped-up account with a lot of thought leader contacts because networking was part of my gig before as well as I freaked out and changed it to my real name, I had to wipe a lot of shit as much as I could so I Laurened it up and I have this fantasy that one day I go back to RTM LI persona-mode and post something there out of nowhere. then like all these fuckin execs and guru bullshit artists start messaging me deals and offers lol. I swear to God being delulu actually works at least some of the time because you don’t know unless you try. What did Homer Simpson say? Bart, if you never try then you never have to fail so the moral is, to never try.
Ya no. I say disrupt like all those motherfuckers preach. Oh yeah? okay then BET.
Actually the wheels are in motion to cook a mixer up with some of these leads and whoever-the-fucks you now so if you would like to be involved in a thing, get in touch. See look, we’re already doing the thing now. Pin it!
Being sober is like a rollercoaster ride on an ever-changing track of options now that you’re with it, have energy, and the want to exist and engage. It’s great. Do I sound like an idiot with all this constant motivational crap stuff? Is it sinking in? Good because y’all could use a little help too. We should always be evolving.
I chatted with a pal and gave some wisdom the other day and maybe it’s TMI but it was on sex addiction and I was noticing patterns so I said you don’t gotta do all that you know, that addiction, that demon, the insatiable shit you’re addicted to well you are a lot sexier if you’re not constantly f—ing chicks just because you can like isn’t all that mess exhausting? Just know when shit is out of control and check yourself.. like it’s funny to hear the stories and be entertained but it gets to a point where you could really effect some change to a friend and it did, they were grateful.
In sobriety you talk about it a lot and spread it around and you don’t care as much about things that use to bother you, you gain a superpower – a fearlessness that those who are dependent on booze don’t possess because if they did then they would have the power to let down the drink, they do not, they are powerless.
I know I am and that is why I cannot do it anymore.
Sobriety is more fun and some homies are also on this path too. it’s exciting to reconnect and make plans that normal people do who aren’t sitting around drinking and doing drugs. It’s all about the journey, make that the destination. Don’t drink to escape and kill time fantasizing about a better life from your box of wine. Go thru the process of getting clean because once all that tough nonsense passes you will be sitting in a space where you are able to love yourself and remember why you are awesome and people like you and the walls aren’t caving in. Reclaim your life.
Look at me! You could be a guy like me!
see ya in the funny papers xo rlw
ps. this dance video is awesome. body is tea. my partner never danced with me and I am a hyper dancer so I started making youtube dance videos to get in shape and to make content for my blog too. The thing that really turned a corner for me was seeing the JT Ciara Love sex magic music video her body is tea and her bangs. It’s always about the bangs for me but anyway I was always about to start getting into shape again but not motivated. my ex made a fat comment to me, then I saw that music video and then it was SO ON. I locked in, got fit, then moved the fuck on. I am grateful for our time together and I have dreams sometimes of the past but essentially I released him from my minx talons so. No hard feelings. Everyone who comes into our lives are our teachers. this vid was 17 years ago but that math doesn’t add up it makes me 26 here when I am actually 24, strange. i also am sober in this, I did not smoke weed for 5 solid years and never drank during the day because I was blogging hungover instead.
enjoy me getting Hallowasters at a foodie show dressed like a stewardess in my burlesque fit.
I was so shy but I did it anyway and yes alcohol helped achieve that.
Halloween weekend in Toronto. I had a burlesque show as well as this, so it was costume time!! SO fun givin’er at food shows because they get you loaded for free and blast tunes it’s just one big weird networking rave party circuit. Watch me in action. I still have brand friends from this very historical moment in time. I am also not with that guy anymore (who is filming) so ladies, don’t ever stop being you in a relationship because that shit will eventually end and you are timeless, and keep going. Could you imagine this video not existing? Get you a cameraman bf and put him to work or gtfo of your damn way sis. We had to walk back we couldn’t get cabs because it was a zombie walk in Toronto it was cold and annoying all these people acting as zombies in my face trying to scare me I was ready to fuck somebody up. Pretty funny tho. everything is funny to me. That’s the slant that I choose to see things by. Shit works!
These are delicious. I sampled a few. I sampled several things. I left with two bags of different no sugar candies for $13 it’s my mission to score the seniors and/or student discount at bulk barn I almost winged it once. I’m coming for you 15% off Wednesdays.
I just want to stuff my hand right in there and eat a handful all at once. I’ve got free will seriously, what is stopping me? They look like erasers I know. Aren’t they adorable? I guess it’s a 90’s thing maybe the affinity for cute little things. Chotchkis, part of girlhood.
Great. And remember that I am on a crazy restrictive fucking no sugar diet and we go into here.
Yes I had one. Peach FFS! It was stale and rock hard, but good I guess. I would need to try it again. I didn’t try the watermelon one. The reason I keep being neurotic about mentioning sampling is because as Canadians we know we aren’t allowed to do this, it’s the bulk barn rules and so we love to defiantly do it. Maybe some Karens announce EXCUSE ME YOUNG MISS OH MISS I WILL BE TRYING THIS GRANOLA MIXTURE like no, the teenagers there do not gaf.
This was on 4th of July I was feeling patriotic for the Americanos. Did we get power back this day? I think so. Anyway I took a picture of these waxy little things, lemon raspberry maybe emulating that popsicle flavour?
If it were fall or winter I sure AF would inhale a roll or three of these bad boys. Sour is my weakness. What does that mean?
A guy beside me was taking pics of another bin I forget of what I tried not to focus on him because then I end up writing an essay about somebody that doesn’t at all matter but like when I do my taking pictures of stuff thing irl sometimes I will wait out people to fucking scram and other times I just do it in front of them but then it’s annoying because they get curious and I feel like I am performing being oblivious. It comes and goes, if I wanna talk to a stranger I will if I don’t they get blown off and don’t even know about it. BURN
Ya so like there’s pluses and minuses to the things we consume har har. However I will say it doesn’t hurt to keep regular.
I was taking multiple photos of this bin it was getting weird my fascination for the look of this texture. OCD hello!
I had to try a sample. Had to. For research.
I grabbed a pink one that had another pink one melted to it BONUS I scarfed them down. Living my best life. When I get around to it I will take a close-up picture of the candies I did buy, because like, why not?
Hilo blog I’m sorry I’m just a little scattered and busy.
My next post here will be a good one I promise but for now I’ll just point to my substack. there’s an area on substack there called notes where ppl (other substack authors) hang out and you see their micro-posts which are like tweets. I love it and I post a lot of content there if you’re an avid-Raymi hunter for that kinda crap.
I’ll give ya a lil something here too tho.. and, we’re getting there on my abs journey.
We are also getting there on my ice cream eating journey which is a sabotage setback and I have valid reasons for every cheating thing that I have defiantly consumed. As well as my stress-dipping thin cantina chips one thousand times into sour cream while watching Love Island and fighting with people on X about Love Islandthen tracking my viral posts where-in I have successfully roasted an islander and their stans are coming for me in droves journey. God this season cannot wrap soon enough.
Had a power outage for a few days out here starting Canada Day, a storm’s wind knocked over 10 hydro poles during this mega-heatwave. v grateful to Mel for having us over.
welp. bye for now, you know where to find me. adios.
Hi okay, hi hi, yeah, yeah, yeah let’s get all this fanfare and fuss out of the way now.
I just read my homework notes from Emily‘s talk we had last week re: my book and I really need to strap in.
I was a little bit overwhelmed and concluded FUCK THIS BOOK I can’t do this but like, it’s only 9am why am I already quitting?
This is what extreme anxiety is like. You are pretty much useless and anything you do achieve is actually a pat on the back but anyway, I said NO to those thoughts, go blog, and here I am.
I swear I have the maturity level of a fucking jelly bean yes I see it too but isn’t it just wonderful!
I think so. If you can just tap dance thru life like a stupid fucking moron then you have got it figured out. More or less.
in between drug deals with the guy I was dating at the time. I am 19 yrs old, an online model in secret, a famous it girl blogger dating a scary dealer in Toronto on my way to a nervous breakdown.
I have a list of words and each word is a chapter to build from and Emily said 30-40 chapters about so I fired off a list while we were on that call. Emily emailed her minutes too thank god.
Structure is my enemy but I love routine and need it, close to bringing it all together now. Emily’s notes are so good and my immediate opportunistic thought is to share them here with you but you can’t do that, you have to save it. I am so impulsive that’s why blogging is intoxicating I get immediate dopamine hits when I share everywhere in lieu of saving chapters for a book then experiencing better gains then instead and more. wtv I need a fucking podcast yesterday and my friend from grade school’s daughter watches my instagram bullshit and told her mom I should do Onlyfans yeah yeah I know we’ll get there.
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At this rate it will be forty years til I publish my book and then we can call it my opus fuckin’turd get it done.
here’s my list of words tho, I will redact some..
Sadness
Hospital
Webcam
Blog
Rehab
Mania
9/11
Six months in mansions
Holland
Maine
LA psychosis
Toronto
M___
___ muskoka
Beaches
Burlesque
Family
Internet
Social media
Insecurity
Anger
Humour
Dreams
Bingeing tv
OCD
Bipolar
Let me know if I am missing anything lol kk ttyl xo don’t be a Chooch!
ps. you know I love my definitions…
“Chooch” is Italian-American slang for a fool, dummy, or goofball, often used playfully among friends or family.
“Chooch” is a slang term primarily used in Italian-American communities, especially in the Northeastern United States, including New York, New Jersey, and Philadelphia
It refers to someone who acts foolishly, makes silly mistakes, or behaves in a gullible or stubborn way. While it can be teasing or mildly derogatory, it is often used affectionately, similar to calling someone a “goofball” or “dummy” in a playful context
The term originates from the Italian word ciuccio, which literally means “donkey” or “pacifier” in Southern Italian dialects
. Italian immigrants in the U.S. adapted the word into “chooch,” reflecting local accents and speech patterns. Over time, it became a common nickname or playful jab within Italian-American families and neighborhoods
Playful/affectionate: Used among friends or family to gently tease someone for a minor mistake or silly behavior. Example: “Oh come on, don’t be such a chooch!”
Mildly negative: Can describe someone acting clueless or foolish, but it is rarely meant as a serious insult
Context-dependent: The tone, relationship, and setting determine whether it feels teasing, affectionate, or slightly critical
Cultural Context
“Chooch” is regionally specific and may not be widely recognized outside Italian-American communities in the Northeast. It has not entered mainstream English and is mostly used in informal, familial, or community settings
Its playful nature makes it suitable for casual conversation but less appropriate in professional or unfamiliar contexts.
In short, a chooch is a lovable fool or goofball, a term that blends Italian heritage with American slang, often used to poke fun at someone without causing offense
speed reading here I don’t see anything about Jersey Shore hmm…
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