you guys are all assholes i provide you with millions’ hour’s worth of entertainment and you don’t even fucking talk to me on msn. well none of the cool ones do anyway. blannnt!

this time around bowling for columbine made sense to me last time i was on lithium and all whaaaa this is boring why are they in fatigues walking around michigan and putting a gun on a dog’s back? that’s amazing.

im sitting here looking at my last smoke trying to decide when the best time to suck the shit out of it would be. it’s raining like mental and the sound of it is loudest in this room on account of the skylights. i use to think it only rained over my house though i won’t get into that jamble of paranoia right now.

i’m trying to eat slower so the message of being full gets to my brain properly and i can stop gorging myself. i’m doing sit-ups too. gah! i know. i haven’t done sit-ups since i was a fat drunken 16 year old lesbian. and then they never worked. i weighed like 135-140 lbs then. total drunken heffer. mind you i’m 5’9 so it wasn’t really overweightness, it just looked like it. my face was so fat and bloaty and my tits were bigger. maybe not. maybe i dreamed they were.

my hair was down to my ass and blond and i wore nothing but skirts and heels and sometimes curled my hair. this is when i thought i was a yuppie and hung with corporate frauds so i was always loaded and doing it.

but eventually you learn that it’s the dirtbags who are having all the glory and fun and the corporates who’s shirt and tie equal prison clothes 9-5 lives, are not anymore.

i wish i knew how to write in english.

ok i’m going to smoke this now.

james!! hi JAMES!

i just spent over an hour learning about tel aviv boy prostitutes on tvo. that channel always airs specials on these hot young fags what is the deal with that noise? like in the mornings they play sesame street et al and every chance they get otherwise it’s all dirty old men in tiny cars and their hairy arms getting their boys a flat and cartons of cigarettes type documentaries. who the fuck is in charge at tvo? is it suppose to be a lesson for tvo kids like if you are a trouble maker at home and your father touches you you can run away and we will film a two-hour special about you huffing chemicals from plastic bags and hangin’ out in the gay garden on benches and curbs telling us your sob stories about dirty mattress rape sessions when you are a 9 year old boy and years later when you go back to your hometown of nubsel the secret service nab you and beat the shit out of you and you do jail time for 4 years over a crime you didn’t commit.

tvo you are awesome and i want to give you a blowjob.

before that i watched the biography channel, 3 hours worth of the hussein family shiznat. i’m sure you all know enough of that story.

famous erratic people being angry with you is amazing.

i was just eating the shit out of some chips and i ate a few hairs. i fell asleep on my front in the sun in my bikini in the backyard and had crazy dreams and sweated like crazy all over the towel. i’m sweating like crazy every nite. i wake up drenched right thru the pillow even. pshaw?

what a drag it is getting old.

sue me mick jagger