somewhat using the same voice i use when talking to small animals. haha “star wars’s” and i basically have no idea what the kid is talking about.
oh and for the rest of the nite and the following day everytime we passed each other he would say wemember the conversation we had? and i would say yeah i really enjoyed talking to you and he would say do you want to talk about star wars more later? we were talking for like 5 minutes before i even started filming that video.
it was rumoured last nite that beckham and tom cruise are an item so then i was thinking about perez hilton and gossip blogs and how celebrities when on talk shows are asked which websites they read and all they can say is perez hilton or some shit like tmz and it is embarrassing, anyway, i of course applied this to myself and what would i say if asked oooh which fucking gossip blog do i read i would say that’s like asking what i jerk off to, how is it even relevant and who cares really? why give more to that fucking blowhard who is famous solely for talking about famous people and for nothing more? he has (cleverly) based his entire persona upon the stupidest hollywood waste of space socialite ever, paris hilton, and thus never ever talks shit about her, everyone and anyone who is her enemy is his as well, he is the quintessential hag fag. his hatred for celebrities who “hate” being photographed by the paparazzi makes me furious, he states that they are hypocritical because it is the paparazzi who make them bigger stars than they are and get them more films, more buzz etc. to which i say bullshit, do not project your deluded ideals onto celebrities because it is your job to sit around in starbucks writing about people who are out there working, people that you have people out stalking for your inflated ego blog. you are so far-deep into your celebrity stalking blog/world you think that what you think is how celebrities think and that they are secretly thankful to be hounded and pictures posted with white photoshopped drizzle and dots and crappy disses all over them. how can you say that what you do has any bearing or makes any difference to their career, what you are doing is actually detrimental you fucking hack. there are celebs that are loads successful and get plenty of work without the aid of a gossip blog, sean penn for example, stays in the shadows.
you created your own reality and now you are buying into it, you built your little shit empire, it’s your perception, not everybody else’s, don’t make assumptions.
ungh in summation, perez hilton should lose some weight and quit with the i REALLY care about amy winehouse one day and then trash her ballet slippers and life the next and then post photos embracing her that’s so beyond tacky.
i don’t ever want to talk about this again i feel disgusting now.
anyone can make a celebrity gossip blog and hitch their enterprising moochy star to paris hilton’s, but, everyone else seems to have a little more class than that.
that being said, i would still totally party with paris hilton and blog about it, just for you guys.
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i have had this dreamy little sweater for four years now, got it for 2 dollars from some hippie garage sale in parkdale. it’s kind of like a belly top these days though.
uh oh someone got busted during sexy time.
samir as gino.
mine. mixed curry vegetable.
samir’s club.
as usual fil.
oh and guess what?
the one time i don’t order the grilled calamari, they give away TWO!
yes that is an emperor pin that noel gave me, yeah i don’t know anything about them either other than i made fun of them once on my blog and some metal geek completely lost his mind over it so if you buy this guy you would be holding a piece of blog history in your hands. i think they broke up. anyway, there will never ever be a shortage of material for heavy metal jokes.
his name is ruby and he is into gambling, sailing, and enjoys the musical stylings of john tesh.
if you are interested email me at raymitheminx@gmail.com don’t try and barter with me in my comments that’s tacky and embarrassing and shows that you are not serious at all but a 20 year old dickhead with no class, or money. also, if you want to special order one of my retarded creations and/or have suggestions/a request, or also want a painting done on commission, lemme know.
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every month or so, keith sends me an over-analytical, arrogant, novel-length email, criticisizing me or you guys or whatever, here is one he just sent, try not to let it make your eyes look in opposite directions. it’s not that i am unintelligent and lazy, i dunno, i feel like the dude is a bit unstable. i appreciate the effort and thought put into writing me this buuuut…. ungh. here is a blog post of his that is obviously about me.
dear raymi
brave? nudity
the last picture in your most recent post is actually a sweet picture, the movie poster all hazed up, the light glowing, the nipple, it worked out well.
aside from that
i was badgering you in earlier emails because i believed that seeking out attention was trite, and subsequently i believed that trite behaviors were to be avoided at all costs… which may be true, but now i see that as far as humanity, and general social existence, is concerned… seeking attention and getting it, in the way that you are, is merely an undeniable part of the social landscape. and my desire to see you use your literary talent in a way that transcends diarist blogging is just like hoping for any number of idealistic absurdities. i.e. communism or utopianism. because the sort of pursuit i envision with your talent might not be as advantageous for you as flexing within the model that has been proven to provide you with a version or a variant of what it is that you seek.
in essence, i am scum. and i have been looking for your attention all this time with these emails when i have been taking issue with the fact that you engage in the pursuit of attention and instant gratification. try not to forget that i know i am scum in all this. i dislike the fact that people idolize so quickly, however this is, again, a natural part of the social landscape considering that you play the role of…. say… a star athlete to a sports fan, to the people that enjoy reading quick-witted pop-culture critiques and quasi hipster-life stories. idolatry is just a brute social fact.
there are some problems with the issues i have taken up, i couldn’t possibly know the extent of your goal set, and i have no way of proving that the things i am calling trite are ultimately negative. but despite the fact that i realize holes in my argument and despite the ridiculousness of my choice to email these almost-diatribes… i think that there is something completely fucked about the dynamics of the cultural world that allow for your blog to be considered good entertainment. it certainly takes talent to do what you do, but talent doesn’t always translate in to a quality product. In comparison to all the diarist blogs that i have seen yours is by far the most engaging, but the nature of the thing is that you are providing details from your life to satiate the entertainment appetites of other internet lurkers. There are no achievements that come from reading your blog, it is more of a giddy laugh because of the way that you turn a phrase or the way that you view a given situation, but without fail those things provide people with a norm base that puts them no better off in relation to moral issues or general conduct issues, the normative framework your blog provides is based off of your version of cool… and that sort of thing can fuck with the reader’s head without them knowing it, and they are getting fucked with without reaping any benefit, of course that happens when they watch advertisements and MTV, but i am grouping you with those other things as a negative… in other words when they read your blog they are just numbing up for a while… like reading the davinci code or something along those lines.
if you assume the stance that you usually do upon receiving my emails you will respond with a sentence or less, which is probably warranted considering the difference in our respective styles, but i would like to hear what it is that you think about the idol loving and the normative structure you provide others (it really seems like a comfort-food variant to me) because you get to experience it from a completely different angle… i know you are smart enough to see the over-arching trends. i have jumped to my conclusions already and that is why i seek the opinions of others, to get me to see where the value lies… to provide me with some detail from a perspective that i have no access to. i am not looking to post anything anywhere. this is simple curiosity and moderate attention-seeking.
ok so not from the exact same nite but here is when i stupidly went blond, some days i liked it, most days i didn’t. i am really into memory lane right now for some reason.
clenching my winter ass.
napoleon dynamite dance.
that’s me using dial-up + aol to email some files at my brother’s work it was so boring and slow. good thing i could watch price is right and shoot off fire extinguishers ‘cos they had slow leaks.
ok it’s tiny but the one below is from the nite everyone was complimenting my greasy crimped bedhead garbage hair.
and this one is the day i fucked up my black hair (moments prior) and dyed it myself then had to fix it profesionally the next day sigh.
moron.
oh i transcribed this post out of generation x, enjoy.
hmm looking at that is kind of where i am at right now, the beauty before the storm.
you can tell i’m riding the red tide cos the bags under my eyes get super crescent-indented deep. i am trying to look dead in this series, something i used to do on webcam for perverts and speaking of…
i wanted to try out being “sporty” this cycle. so far so good.
do u ever thought of being a porn-star? lacky | Edit comment Delete comment | 09.18.07 – 12:16 pm | #
actually no but i already have done some pornish things in my life and i feel like doing something like that again would be going backwards, not to harp on women’s career choices or anything i don’t want some long boring ethical debate about the sex industry (zzz) anyway, no, you will not be seeing my gash anytime soon, unless you are hustler magazine or playboy and have mountains of cash.
oh and re: pornish things, i was a webcam girl, i did not do porn, i did not fuck bros and make dvds.
i have a zit on the right side of my chin and it is making me look like rumer willis cos when i look in the mirror i jut my chin out in this rumer willis jug jaw way and then i kind of high five myself in my head for looking like a c-list celeb. wait is she b-list? anyway i am not going to get an alien haircut so don’t worry. everyone is all worried about me getting streaks it is kind of sweet like we are all in highschool together smoking cigarettes and no one can make a change w/o consulting the other 8 of the crowd. except i was never like that in highschool so i am going to get streaks anyway. it will look really pretty and i can get away w/o washing it everyday cos the blond hides the grease. i bathed yesterday with my hair up then went out like that and couldn’t handle it, fil liked it. i haven’t had my hair piled on my head in ages so i had to take it down and looked like sloan from ferris bueller, all greasy flipped over wave. you need some hair-up practise before going out into the world, maybe i should invest in one of those retarded bra strap head bands? i HAVE to get streaks cos my hair looks super greasy if i go one day w/o washing it and it can be all garbage messy unwashed and people compliment the hell out of it. i did this hosting event thing a few years back and all these fashion people kept talking about my hair i will find a picture in a minute of the exact nite out.
