so now i’m awake and it’s 6:30pm. darkness again. all over again. i guess i should sort this blog’s posts in sequence, what? a guy is over right now telling us all about joe millionaire and that joe isn’t really a millionaire and it’s pretty fucking entertaining seeing as i’ve just woken up from a string of nitemares and have rolled a few joints out of boredom. man, women and their visions of riches. i love it. ok i’ll write back in a minute.
i think i need to put on some music and maybe some clothes not in the bathrobe-genre.
maybe i need to write when i actually have something meaningful to say.
Dear Perry of Hello Toast,
you know i still fucking got it. that’s it. mega-after-three-in-the-fucking-morning supermarket shopping sweeps.
i regret not having e-mailed john roth like you at hello toast really wanted me to but whatever, i have had it with wrinkly old dinks and dusty prehistoric money. it’s like can i please not suck your old cock? can i please walk around your big, empty house with my leg warmers drooping to my ankles and fuck-me knees and raccoon eyes and scream at you for valium? no, really?
perry, i want you to tell me what is so patti smythwhatthefuck about me. ok?
i am not the right girl for you
send me the link to the first hellotoast blind date you did. you know i am going to be on this blind date show soon enough if i can stop living out my own requiem for a dream movie. we just checked to make sure that is how you spelt “requiem” and it is. IT IS!
oh and i’m being nice, by the way.
can you email me some food stamps? the cat says hello.
you know i think one of my favorite pastimes is being skinny, fancy and drunk and hilarious and walking to the bathroom every half hour to be alone and go durrrrrrr to myself on the toilet and when i get up from my chair my feet are wet and slippery in my old man shoes and then i might just fall down in front of everyone and go oh poo-haw, poo-haw to the room and then it’s ok.
i also quite enjoy late-nite food shopping sprees and figuring out what popcorn is the best and cheapest and bestest deal and convincing people we ought to buy some fucking Tide Mountain Spring although we ain’t doing no goddamn laundry for another week or two. patrons, cashiers, servers, homeless people fucking HATE me. ok so, we’re a fan of getting the last box of something on the shelf and we get stuck in snowbanks and we like to stay up ’til 6am and drink tonic orange juices and visit guys who belong in Lord of the Rings and if we immitate Gary Oldman in LEON -The Professional one more time it wouldn’t be too soon. you know the beads part and where he accuses that guy of not liking Beethoven and asks Natalie Portman what food is in the bag and she says she wants love or death and the glasses of milk and the ugly pig sister and the beautiful staircases in those buildings.
i talked a lot in a small room with a slanty roof and i explained a long distance phone bill in maine and a letter i wrote to Oprah Winfrey to get me out of a debt that wasn’t mine or i had any business in paying off and i used my hands to explain these things and i said, “Know your rights with creditors they can’t come and get you in the middle of the nite” and then we got magic mushrooms and tomorrow i guess you’ll know the rest.
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