An old obsessive compulsion of mine
I’m special.
Obsessive Compulsions and Raymi from raymi lauren on Vimeo.
I had to delete the other video i made (to make room on my camera) explaining my counting letters/words obsession. I’ll redo it another day, i know i’ve described it before and i figure it makes more sense when you just hear me say it even though the compulsion itself makes absolutely no fucking sense whatsoever which for the most part none of them do. from my own personal experience i’ve deduced that one invents or creates an obsessive compulsion out of boredom, usually due to the cause of under-stimulation or being under-challenged whathaveyou so typically it’s the brainiacs who have all these weird ticks usually (always) having to do with counting. a hell of a lot of them are a direct result of trauma or stress also. i know that it felt calming to count and it kept my brain occupied and it’s kind of a mental holiday (even though compulsions are obviously manifested in the brain) though for many (i’m sure by now you’ve heard of that show obsession) it is utter hell, they are prisoners to their obsessions, alienated and so on. my compulsions never got in the way of my day-to-day life. other than when i had a nervous breakdown. anyway, enjoy that stupid video which is dedicated to steph who is obsessed with obsessions. bye i’m completely exhausted and my hair is a total mess. first time camping OH MAH GAWD what a diva i did 6 costumes changes yesterday and never heard the end of it. hello, weather changes throughout the day plus over-packing plus booze equals the fuckin’ tickle trunk. (also packing for 3 days)
once the rain attack stopped the clouds disappeared and the heat and the sun oh man, having to leave blew anus. sigh.
woah i just clark griswolded the tent off the balcony (seriously how do you take those things apart in gailforce winds? that was ridiculous!) that shit’s all in a pile on the floor around me right now fil set it up to dry cos he packed it up while it was raining earlier today. poor fil shooting an outdoor show right now. feels like tornado weather with a sprinkling of hurricane.
watching big brother right now holy shit that blond chick is the dumbest ever. can’t tell time, if you told her it was a quarter to something she wouldn’t know what time that was. also doesn’t know how spider webs are made. why did jeremy piven just show up??? what a giant unfunny penis.
cid is totally hiding in the bathroom from the thunder and crackling lightnining and i’m sucking back a mimosa.
LOVES this season of big brother, yeah that blond chick is reeeeeeeeeal dumb but her boyfriend is not the brightest either, they make a good couple, and wtf was the point of jeremy piven, just there to promote his shitty movie, they might as well make everyone drink pepsi and have big sponsored logos all over the place, that was retarded and dumb. And im so happy ronnie is gone and god i hate jessie and that little annoying chick, my fav kaycee was booted out, i like lydia but only cause she looks so rad. sorry for going on but im a little obsessed with Big brother….
im rooting for jeff cos he’s no bullshit. or kevin.
yeah jeff is cool, kevin is nice but they havent really highlighted him, he is quite quiet laying low u know. Lydia looks cool but has no personality what so ever and all she does all day is put on whacky makeup and try to spoon jessy.
same, jeff or kevin.
for some reason when i watch yer videos from your blog i get no sound…too bad..
lydia is phony and insecure and a poseur.
i used to do something similar when i was a kid as well. instead of using my hand it was all in my head but i had to ‘jump’ over all the telephone wire poles and ‘touch’ the ground in between. up and down up and down. if i was particularly bored i would try and include the trees as well.
huh. nice to see i’m not the only kid who needed something to entertain themselves with when they were bored.
aww poor cid. i knew a dalmation dog that would dive under coffee tables or anything else it could get under during storms as well. poor things
ha just remembered this when i watched your video-
I used to have this thing as a kid while riding in the back seat… remember those old school metal door locks, that popped up and down? well, i had to pull back on it for every tree on the side of the road, if i didnt it would DIE and it would be my fault.
i also used to imagine a tiny little gymnast doing flips and hand springs and shit down the side of the road going as fast as the car was, and i also used to control her with the door lock, like a joy stick.
so yeah i really liked your video, i wasn’t the only weird kid i guess.
So, I used to find a rain spot or something on the window in the car, and I would focus on it as we drove and I would make it fly over things like trees and fences and stuff. If it didn’t make it over, I would have a sad. Okay, not really that interesting I know. But yours reminded me of that, and I hadn’t thought about it in eons.
Okay now the ass kissing! Ready. Go. You are hotter than ever, I don’t know how you do it. Seriously.
Wow I can’t remember you mentioning this before, wonder if your counting-letters compulsion is the same one as mine
cute video. i love camping. watch out for ticks.
costume changes are what camping is all about! yyyeah!
I used to do the same sorta thing while my mum was driving us somewhere… but I’d use my fingers and pretend they were running along the side of the road and they’d jump over obstacles.
sometimes i would just have to acknowledge everything with my mind/eyes and i’d hold my breath if i missed something until it was ok again. holy spazz attack. haha amber to your gymnast that’s hilarious.
oh and thanks jimh! restrictions during the week, piggin’ out on weekends.
wow a lot of people did that sort of thing!
i would look through the windshield at whatever shadows were on the car. i would have to “jump” (basically just in my mind, but probably moved my feet a little) and only “touch” the road where there were shadows across it. so if there were trees, telephone poles, etc. i’d imagine myself touching down on the road at that exact spot.
it got hard when there were a bunch in a row or when we were on a highway because sometimes i’d have to do it really fast and would miss a shadow. it was also hard when a shadow only covered half the road because then i’d only be touching down on that side.
sometimes i did it with construction where there were tar lines across the road too. this was more on highways where there were no shadows and a bunch of construction instead. this was harder.
hahahha love the tent set up DIVA haha
i did weird shit like that as a kid all the time but never considered them compulsions, like how i used to only eat my smarties/skittles after organizing them into their own separate colour piles and then eating my least favourite colour down first down to my favourite, one at a time.
steph you do that with your food, you separate everything so it isn’t touching even if it was plated/displayed in a mountain you pick it all apart.
that is TRUE i dont like mixing tastes