i watched this thing about the WACO massacre last nite i dunno how i spaced that whole phenom. when it happened and for many years after, i do recall the word waco in the news a lot i think i thought it was some sort of political agenda or legislature and immediately tuned it out. anyway, i stayed up til 2am fighting sleep just to watch it entirely what the fuck is it cult sweeps this month on discovery channel and every other nerd station? fil was pretty vague as to what went down, they died in a fire, ok but how? so he got to sleep and i stayed up to LEARN. so these ‘tards were holed up 51 days only to burn to death in a basement bunker now that is what i call sacrifice y’all! ok sorry. they were too afraid to come out cos the genius fbi with their tanks and tear gas scared them. granted, the davidians were brain-washed BUT the fbi employed psycho-tactics like flying helicopters low over the building and shining lights into the windows and playing demonic music slow-mo to make the people crazier. anyway, sucks. thumbs DOWN, cults!

oh guess what!? remember that post i wrote about that annoying chick at the bar a month ago who was talking shit about everyone she worked with, calling every girl a cunt yet says she respects them? lise and i went to whole foods on avenue and i saw her there, she’s a cashier. i wanted to rat her out to all her co-workers HEY SEE THAT GIRL AT REGISTER 5? SHE TALKS SHIT ABOUT YOU. then leave. oh too rich. this life, i tell you.

i trust you to kill me.

here are some adjectives:

AWESOMSICLES

RADICALSICLES

RADULICIOUS

PARTYVILLE

kiefer is drinking and smoking the whole time, he is very endearing i only thought about being his girlfriend once. ONCE. anyway this thing is about a band touring europe for two weeks and kiefer is the tour manager and he is a completely inexperienced fuck-up and it is BEAUTIFUL, he’s there when they don’t need him, eating a steak and pizza alone in a bar not answering his phone when they do. when they are in england they get to this venue and on the flyers it says the name of the singer in the band, rocco and CHEAP HOTEL. when they called ahead before showing up they said rocco is in the band and they NEEDED A CHEAP HOTEL. this is the band, it is called the burden NOT cheap hotel. you can tell kiefer is having a midlife crisis and sort of doesn’t believe in himself. i dunno.

if this video doesn’t sway you into renting it then you are a leper.

if you google heaven’s gate TLC my blog is second.

we went shopping yesterday because we are girls. i didn’t buy that dress. the print is like underwear i use to have. i bought two shirts, a cardigan, a necklace and some shoes. fil got new shoes too, and a shirt/tie combo. i chose his shoes and am taking 120% credit they are awesome, he would not have had the nerve to get them if it weren’t for me, i know they will be life-changing.

i talked to george for the first time yesterday on the phone, he’s in new york with marek. i asked when do i get to meet him, he said whenevs. i played it cool, don’t worry kids.

some anonymous hag from vancouver said i needed to go on a diet. i am already starving myself, and have lost thirteen pounds since late january. i know i am looking trimmer, i just think it’s funny how bitches try and pyschologically fuck with how you view your body when they are jeals or fatter than you, when i got skinnier a few years ago and weighed 115 lbs i would get fat comments a lot, the skinnier you get the more they say you are fat, it’s sad. anyway, vancouver can blow me and so can your fat mother.

fat is fat when you are fucking huge not when you are slightly bigger than a toothpick or a coatrack. what is wrong with bitches these days? i want to cut you.

mg is down with my testicles homage. maybe i will make a book of above-par poetry such as this and read it at the victory. BALLS! then 5 minutes of silence yeah i would nod my fucking head to that. incredible.

oh man, facebook is going to ruin my life for the next week or so, i just hit the grade school jackpot FINALLY. i am waiting for twenty people to add me so i can spy on their profiles, who is fat, who is thin, pregnant, ugly still? FUN.

I AM A DETECTIVE, DETECTING.

i’m pretty bad at timing these jump photos fil just sits there and makes fun of me he is just jealous because i am full of life and fun and YOUTH.

i left a love message on the toilet wall for the victory cafe geeks (brendan don’t rat me out like you did re: my jakalope post!)

i need a tan

last nite we went for an annex stroll to get a movie and go for a couple drinks at the victory, we chose a modest table in the back beside this woman who talked A LOT to her date at first i was psyched about sitting there, i fucking love eaves-dropping but after 5 minutes i could no longer hang so we moved to the bar which was cool until i realised you could hear the beating drums from the poetry sesh upstairs a hell of a lot easier YES!

i don’t get how the victory specifically hosts arty farty poetry shows, like if you are the tiniest percentage of cool then your band canNOT play there, it’s weird cos the downstairs clientele seem to be pretty decent, hip, pretentiously so, my favourite kind but then you climb the stairs to take a whiz and it’s a full-on nerd orgy attack to the senses and everyone gives you cut-eye cos you walked in during an especially MOVING and thought-provoking part of tabitha’s poem about what it is like to be a black lesbian albino orphan in edmonton or a dream she had about it, once.

the annex may as well get it over with and change its name to NEW ENGLAND.

finished watching karla and it is disturbing. i will tell you more about it later. basically i want to put paul bernardo in a drum of gasoline and set him on fire after i beat the shit out of his face with jagged shards of glass gloves on and then do something equally fucked up and painful to karla. they make her out to be a total victim and humanise her but at the end there are a bunch of facts that come up saying how she exhibits all tendencies of one who is a perfect candidate for psychosis. she was just too apathetic about all the shit that went down and she did nothing to stop it, i’m sorry but if my daughter was kidnapped by a dude/lady team and the lady didn’t have one fucking maternal instinct erupt within her after being beaten and abused and raped in the ass well fuck, my head would explode.

oh right i also have re-discovered hatred and anger all over again for my ex-boyfriend who back-handed me twice in mexico and did other awful things to me for 6 months, i know you still read my blog you can go fuck yourself burn in hell, or jail, fuckface. i also still fully hate the other abusive one but his life has nicely turned to shit now anyway so, feh you reap what you sow, and all that.

ok i am on facebook now everybody, party down.