i ran out of boners of the week please name some and put up a picture too and i pretty much forgot all the ones i already did so if you want to remind me of them that would be nice so i don’t double dong them aha.

also, 4 years ago today tony pierce interviewed me and that’s when i was working secretly as an online “model” so you can tell at first i am aprehensive of talking about it but then i change my mind cos of tony’s nothing in here is true line ok enjoy.

i didn’t realise how rad that shirt looks thanks jessica

oh i updated aboutraymi in case you care.

that’s what my diamond pillow looks like so far it’s probably the most annoying thing i have made to date other than that humongous cigarette because i started it without thinking it through first as is all the things i ever do so i’m like ok i guess i have to add more fuscia thread all around to border it despite me spending thirty fucking minutes sewing the shape with white thread. i should have listened to my sewing coach but nooooooo. one day i am going to sew my hand to the cat that’s how not thinking it through first i am.

ps. if you can think of another way to get my point across without using AS IS ALL please let me know.

pps. i’m working on getting us a celebrity to come out to dodgeball and/or karaoke AND it’s not one that i’ve ever mentioned before.

did you know that bon jovi made new homes for katrina peeps and they named the street bon jovi boulevard? well i did and i know this from oprah and matthew mcconaughey named his street angel lane so this means that bon jovi is all look at me i am a boulevard woooooh and matthew mcconaughey is like, a babe. ok well angel lane already existed cos of oprah but still bon jovi could have been less arrogant and called his street i dunno banana avenue? ps. bon jovi it’s REFRIGERATOR not FRIGERATOR.

that is all.

depressed people tend to be pretty insecure. i just watched that ny times cat power interview and yep the last thing you realise is that people like you and have liked you all along, when you are drugging and drinking yourself invisible it’s a shield from having to face whether or not you are a monster and if people think that but really they dig you and they like your art and creativity and the funny shit you say and do but then you snap and have to exile yourself for a bit and you think welp now they are going to hate me.

basically, insecurity is a burden, depression is a sickness and this combined with needing a lot of attention usually ends in disaster a few times but this is the only way for some people.

but what then when you are also grandiose?

anyway i’m done projecting, for now.

we rented v for vendetta last nite. i avoided seeing it cos of that fucking mask i dunno just thought it cheesy but by the end you don’t even realise the guy is wearing it it’s just well him you know. anyway it’s a really fucking good movie and i regret not seeing it in the theatre. THAT GOOD. it’s all 1984’d out, takes place in future london, filmed in berlin where hitler did his propoganda films uh natalie portman has a pretty face and hair and a pretty mole on her face that should have its own imdb page and she has a british accent and she does that natalie portman I AM CRYING DESPERATE FOR BREATH cry where it’s like I GET IT YOU ARE CRYING BOO HOO but uh the dvd has an easter egg to her doing the SNL digital short of her rapping like she is a super badass and it’s totally funny cos she is a 100% do-gooder.

oh and we were sober last nite too and this is a good movie to not drink to in the sense that it consumes you entirely, it’s so long that by the time it’s over you are like welp time for bed before i kill someone cos i HAVE ZERO ALCOHOL IN MY BLOODSTREAM BLEEEAAARGHH!

that agent from the matrix plays the V guy and he does a good job and his house is awesome oh yeah all the bad guys die. it is very cleverly written the way the story unfolds oh and you get to see some lesbian stuff too love raymi.