fil and i are going to do anniversary dinner tonite a day early WHERE SHOULD WE GO? is sassafraz crap? neither of us have been before is the hype even worth it? maybe for comedy’s sake it is. spying on show boaters is one of my favourite hobbies. the c5 prix fixe dinner menu does not excite me, for main your choice is pizza or pasta and i’m trying to wean myself from carbs again (even though i made love to some sweet lulu last nite and fil’s leftovers for most of today) so pasta bread is a no no. i’m also paranoid the portions will be tiny modernist size, like uh thanks for the handful of lettuce and that one oyster. guh. buh. fuh. muh?
i just tried on my slutty nun costume with wig and there is no way i am ever wearing it again so who wants a nun costume? pfft “again” i never even wore it out period!
oh that picture of me up there reading reminds me of this one a bit, i believe i am 17 here and this was at the italian bar/cafe in streetsville i used to go to during my spares to drink then not bother going back to school (i know!)(and they served me!)(how pretentious!) and oh whatever everyone else was going to class on acid. i would be one of the only customers and i’d drink specialty coffees, then come back later at nite with buds and sometimes have difficulty getting in, until they recognized me more as the loner girl who wrote in her journal in a booth. oh man the myspace jokes just write themselves don’t they?
update:
1. the old guy screaming woke me up this morning after fil went to work and he just fired it up again, i was about to scream at his door but fil called, he got lucky.
2. someone at the end of the hall used the garbage chute last nite at 12.30 fucking scoundrel, wait til i’m naked and can’t run after you. he too got lucky.
3. the bad kids are in the park right now and i am coincidentally googling crossbows.
4. that ISN’T a coincidence.
5. remind me to call the city about the little building in that park, someone unlocked the door somehow and the kids enjoy slamming it over and over and over again and probably touch each other when they go inside and i bet come snow time it will be hobo haven. they’re thinking of turning it into a dog park. what is more annoying: children screaming when i’m hungover OR dogs barking when i’m hungover? thanks to these twerps i am looking forward to sub zero temperatures. not so fun hanging around a park then eh?
can i hire this girl after school you think?
also you know when you’re in a funk and decide to treat yourself to some shitty television programming as a gift to comfort your sad little self – why come it makes you feel ten times worse WITHOUT FAIL? like saved by the bell the new class ugh. i’m waiting for full house to come on to save me from this crap. ok TMI. ok wait i feel better than these actors right now actually. yesterday though, this made me down right sour. can you tell i am procrastinating from putting together a dinner outfit?
ok i super hate this Natalia Cigliuti chick for some reason she is making me wicked incensed, i think it’s because her hair is tucked behind each ear and she has bobby pins on top of that and her hair is mid-length and she’s just way too physical with all that fucking hair and head shaking and earnest facial expressions. also seeing as each character is meant to somewhat replace the previous cast, this chick just doesn’t compare to kelly kapowski at all. don’t pretend this shit doesn’t bug you too.
ok right now they’re all getting in shit from mr. belding about custom designed nikes (as air screech), he says it’s illegal. dude! too bad mr. belding didn’t have the foresight to get himself a crystal ball, moron.
i can’t even promise that i will never blog about this show again.
you guys were really into the mother’s day gift video (wimps) so why not come along for this ride, oh and if you know the conversion of currency into dollars what this shit is all worth let me know so i can properly play the guilt card thank you. i also look extremely tired in this video, didn’t eat all day, crap lighting in the bedroom and i’m bloated. pics of the potions and lotions below the video (which should be processed shortly) ok bath time.
as told by steph, written by raymi age 13 or 14 (for school, not for fun!)
there’s a second part video but i’ll be surprised if any of you sit through this terrible terrible tale, i mean super hilarious drunken self-absorbed reading.
When you were showing us all your Harajuku Lovers fragrances I decided to send away for one of the free samples and I ended up wining one the $250 gift cards from Shoppers Drug Mart! You just saved me allot of Christmas shopping money, oh and I’ll probably buy myself tons of new makeup too.
THANK YOU!!!
-Jacki
this is a time when you say yes i am totes happy for you then stomp off loudly and bitterly.
and now i will share with you an extremely flattering picture of sickraymi last nite w/ leftover shitty makeup
this is hilarious to me right now cos i look so pale when really my face is getting darker cos i’ve been using jergens natural glow daily moisturizer. there’s like 50 bottles at shoppers on the clearance rack reduced to 2.99 from 7.99 well there was when i drunk bought one monday nite. the clearance rack is my weakness. i also bought children’s cough drops what?
fil is really into his pj’s the first thing he said to me this morning was that we needed them in christmas plaid next and then i pulled a muscle in my neck from my hair being caught between all the pillows what the hell. i am falling apart here people.
gee i dunno guys, aside from looking and feeling like death right now not to mention looking fuck all like gwyneth paltrow, not sure about this get-up. well i at least could wear my coat all nite long. FUN.
if i go this route the wig would need some altering for sure though i don’t think i want to cut it, it’s also way too light.
on the plus side i’m sweating my balls off right now feeling feverish and i look like i just blasted myself with a makeup shotgun, yes, more so than usual.
buhruuuuuuuuutal. that’s a gum cigarette.
i believe pre-menstrual’s in the house therefore tube dress skinny courage meter is dippin’ pretty low.
also i’ve been experiencing body numbness off and on since saturday morning, it’s been bumming me out. i didn’t want to mention it cos like gee it’s always something right and plus my mom emails me straight away with mental health garbage and it stresses my dad out, i’ve had scans before, saw a neurologist and nothing was found to be wrong with me. i haven’t had this for awhile can’t exactly remember the last time, it just really blows when you can’t feel your hands feet body, the temperature of water (dangerous) or hair texture (impossible to braid my hair god it’s pathetic) and going out to darkly lit bars is also very frustrating and embarrassing when you can’t feel where your body ends and somebody else’s begins so you constantly bump, tap, whatever into people and look plastered when you’re not. i was extremely nervous going down the stairs to the bathroom, i had to do this cheesy side step shuffle every time. when we went to wendy’s on saturday even just walking on normal ground i had to stamp and stomp through the restaurant i felt so dumb, i looked like i was walking on the moon patting the air ahead of me to feel where the ground is. anyway don’t write me pity comments and dad don’t flip out! i’m sure it will gradually go away soon i just need to move around a lot more and get my circulation going. do you think zoloft caused this? it came on immediately after i tried on my pajama onesie (no you won’t catch it cos fil is right as rain after wearing his a ton) so maybe it’s an allergy. SIGHHHHHHHHH.
Dawn again, Just thought that a bunch of girls here in Philadelphia ( the Raymi Fans) are getting/got this necklace made for each of us.
After all, What Would Raymi Do?
We are going to take pics of about the city in certain situations.. and we are gonna call it our : WWRD? episodes.. ha!
Take care,
You’re still amazing and tops! Love the Pajamas!
~Dawn
THANKS FOR CHOOSING ME OVER JESUS YOU GUYS!
You’re just a very cool chick. And I love your attitude about life. I mean after all, in certain situations my girlfriends and I have actually said to ourselves: What would Raymi do in this situation? And now we decided to make necklaces showing our love.. Gonna have to make one for you and send it your way.
We love you!
If you ever make it out here to Philly, we gonna take you out and get you trashed!
*hugs*
There are 4 of us.
Me, Iman, Syra ( Sigh Ra ) and Isobel.
Funny how I found your blog.. Big fan of Matt Good’s. Saw a pic of you and him together and thought.. damn she is gorgeous. So I googled you and found the blog.. started to read it. Laughed so hard I pee’d myself. I know embarassing. Then some tragic shit happened, my Mother died. But while I was taking care of her she and I would read your blog. She found you hilarious and beautiful, I would like extend that compliment to you.. and she had a mad crush on your boyfriend and Matt. When I got home a bunch of my friends and I got together and I read your blog to them. Ever since then we have been hooked on our night out and blog reading. Most of the time its Isobel with her laptop sitting at the bar reading it and drinking wine. The rest of us laughing and admiring.
And yes we love you more then Jesus.. Not that he wasnt a cool guy, anyone who perfers wine over water is alright in my book, but your real and thats important.
Michael: Hey there Like your idea about blogging this and yes please change my name. Use my middle name if you could please
me: can you change your chat handle to that for future so i dont have to retype actually no biggie
Michael: or just use Michael, no matter really
me: oh yeah michael is fine ill just leave out your last name
Michael: i cant believe my new fav pic of you is not topless lol. second pic in crabby goes for a walk post
me: oh thanks it’s nice to know that pervs don’t lose their perv when they are going to kick it
Michael: once a perv always…. Hey I ran strip clubs most my life
me: really? how sleazily hilarious
Michael: oh yeah, I was manager of Deja Vu in Colorado springs for years it was pretty sleazy, but fun
me: what were the girls like in rural bars aren’t they a little more uh, seasoned?
Michael: anywhere from drop dead beautiful, to uggh Colorado springs is a decent sized city so we got them all
me: ah k
Michael: I am going to CO tomorrow for an annual halloween party hosted by a stripper
me: yeah you told me must be the memory loss im re-reading our first chat now
Michael: yup, i do have memory loss so bear with me
me: its ok i do too but its the booze’s fault
Michael: lol ill say it once, cause im not a nazi, but u should quit smoking. ok enough on that, i hate smoking nazis
me: dude i DID quit smoking last winter cigarettes disgust me im one of those arrogant annoying non smokers now
Michael: cool i think i remember now
me: nice im trying to think of a title for this blog post of our chat
Michael: well good job, i still smoke. whats it gonna do now?
me: in it i mention yer middle name is ***** on top of talking to you as michael should i omit that
Michael: do whatever is easy
me: ok i wont mention yer middle name
Michael: groovy
me: so did you tell your family yet
Michael: well they know i am sick, but they dont know the extent yet i want to do some things first and dont want family all freaked out
me: good can i use your picture on my blog did you see reality bites? the scene when the gay guy and his friend act out a vignette of what its going to be like to tell his parents hes gay you should watch it
Michael: i saw it years ago, ill have to watch it again. Sure use any pic u want
me: ok im trying to get u more lady friends steve zahn is hilarious which family members do u have to tell, siblings too?
Michael: 2 brothers and my mom
me: who is going to take it the hardest there was an older pic of you in black and white why cant i find it wearing glasses?
Michael: Mom, she just lost her sister and a dear friend and I am her fav son lol oh it should be in my facebook profile pics
me: email me it cant find it
Michael: sent
me: got it thanks
Michael: i am really interested where this is all gonna go
me: me too im sure its going to be a sensitive spot for many
Michael: yeah but i have humor about it all so dont worry about anything
me: yeah you’re alright you know? i added this to the bottom of the post, and u already got a comment you should interact with people in the comments http://raymitheminx.blogspot.com/2008/10/not-kidding.html brb laundry
Michael: k gotta get out of bed and shower, but we will chat more later. I liked the post by the way. ttyl
me: thanks byebye 9 people lurking in my comments probably writing novels
Michael: cool, we are gonna be a hit lol
me: totally i bet someone will call me an asshole
Michael: tell them i said fuck you if they do
me: you can do that for me cos they cant fight you back muahaha
Michael: lol. i will. see ya soon
if you missed it here is the previous chat to this one with michael.
Xenia: dude I feel that I need to tell you as a pal that you should really take it easy on making this pout face in pictures
me: wow youre a fucking bitch eh thats how my mouth goes im not making it
Xenia: wtf i knew you were gonna take it like that
me: when im nervous i cant help IT
Xenia: but i have seeen you in real life and it doesnt oh
me: jesus
Xenia: fuck well sorry didnt mean to be a bitch i just figured its a photo face you do
me: its a trait inherited from my nana i hate it its that or no smile at all
Xenia: jesus sorry i didnt know i guess thats why it seemed so weird that youd do it all the time
me: well at least you care enough to go over my pictures with a fine tooth comb
Xenia: ???
me: im joking
Xenia: whatever it seemed deliberate and i thought you were not aware i was trying to help guess you can lose your shit about it
me: and why exactly should i take it easy on pursing my lips like that im not losing my shit, you’re just extremely rude sometimes
Xenia: cause its looks like youre making a pouty face in every picture like 13 year old girls on myspace
me: and now you are being defensive about it
Xenia: well yeah cause i didnt mean any harm
me: yes your intentions are pure
Xenia: yeah they fucking are
me: when cameras are in your face all the fucking time you dont know how to pose your face any more and being wasted adds to it
Xenia: yeah i understand – i thought you were doing the opposite anyways sorry ive said anything
me: its a nervous smirk thats like pointing out my lazy eye
Xenia: well it doesn’t look like a lazy eye or a nervous smirk it looks like a deliberate pouty camera face but you said it wasn’t and so I guess its not then ok
me: ps i dont have a lazy eye dude why are you so into fighting
Xenia: I’m not sorry PMS!!
me: you see no fault in what you say its rude
Xenia: uh I get all upset if people think im being a bitch what’s rude?
me: i do not deliberately set out to do zoolander faces all the time, i have many various and shitty facial expressions in pictures, thank you for pointing one out
Xenia: well i didnt know sorry
me: its ok im so blogging this tho
Xenia: sure whatever what im saying is that i think youre someone who takes their pictures seriously so then i feel like i can remark on your posing cause its not like a family snapshot from 1988 and i’m like OH this belt sucks!
me: i will try to be more aware of it in the future just for you i will think XENIA every time i pose from now on and now i am going to go thru all of your facebook pictures and find that same smirk i bet you do it too
Xenia: youre psychotic raymi go ahead
me: i am kidding jesus you cant nag someone when you are immediately on the defense
Xenia: hah im looking at my pics to see if i do it now CAUSE OF YOUR RAYMI but my drunk face is half closed eye and exposed gums so consider yourself in luck
me: haha also i think its cos i am aging so thank you for reminding me
Xenia: how is it cause of aging how is that possible?
me: your face gets skinnier and the loose flesh is lined i dunno i just know it hasn’t always been the prevalent
Xenia: ugh loose flesh maybe it has to do with being more self conscious
me: no its from losing weight + getting older = deadly combo then posing with strangers drunk and being neurotic
Xenia: still better than fatface i think
me: yeah i am fatface all over the place when i grin
Xenia: hence nervous smirk!!
me: inherited pucker my mom does it too ps i liked how i looked in that picture
Xenia: i didnt say it was a bad face you just make it alot
me: not any more or less than other dumb faces i pull
Xenia: yes but recognizable for me because of things lik this and this etc etc
me: omg why are you looking at pictures of little girls/boys?
Xenia: no its ugh miley sirus’s myspace i think
me: those are way more extreme than my pucker
Xenia: i googled myspace pout on google images
me: haha well thank you for lumping me in with that lot ive been mugging for pics before myspace even existed and those kids were not even 7 years old
Xenia: what are you talking about how are we onto this didnt we cover this whole thing already?
me: yes we did, we are both reiterating it anyway now i have something new to be self conscious about thank you honestly thank you sorry for pms yours
Xenia: omg ok YOU WELCOME
me: ha and thank you for the blog material my trolls will jump all over this opportunity to rip on me more
Xenia: am i telling you to post it? what planet are you on now jesus
me: omg i am saying thank you for the blog material
Xenia: ok “thank you for the blog material my trolls will jump all over this opportunity to rip on me more” what?
me: and as an aside my loser readers will take the opportunity to use it
Xenia: ok well thats not how it came across
me: i garbled it all in together
Xenia: ok listen i gotta go bye!
me: byebye
as another aside, i’m pretty sure that i don’t take my pictures seriously, why would i pose with two hats on and beer dribbling down my face if that were the case? i pretty much take nothing seriously.
Xenia: hey ok i just had a cigarette sorry i realized that I don’t know what kind of an answer I was expecting to thta, that is kind of shitty, i guess that I was thinking of it from a photo point of view like ; ‘you take alot of pictures of this one tree’ or something like that, but i shouldnt have said that cause its personal as well and that’s easy to forget when you post so many photos, that theyre photos of you and your expressions are personal
me: ok thank you re-reading it got me steamed all over again to be honest like, you think you get me, people do, but they dont, i really take nothing seriously other than i dunno nothing im not like serious posing, im out at a party, people hugging and posing for pictures, its not a thought out thing at all
Xenia: i guess cause youre your own model its easy to critisize and feel that its valid and i feel like the person in the pictures is not the one i’m talking to per se but of the model, you know? so i would make a comment on the picture and not about your behaviour which is obviously not what you meant – but i forget that so, sorry, that was dumb!!
me: if i took it seriously im pretty sure i would have like a business model/plan and be posing like paris fucking hilton
Xenia: yeah sorry I guess I’m an asshole in an asshole mood – please don’t take it personally i was just being knobheaded
me: i haven’t taken it personally i get it
Xenia: i thought i was ‘helping’ or something
me: you’re v black and white about things and sometimes you are blunt without thinking
Xenia: like if i told you you had food stuck between your teeth yeah i know sorry bah
me: like i wouldn’t tell you to take it easy on wearing your hair in buns all the time, cos thats a personal thing and is rude its none of my business like how my pictures are none of yer business
Xenia: i know i know sorry
me: but i appreciate the input, u cant insult someone then tell them omg you are losing your shit
Xenia: like i said, i thought i was giving some kind of a constructive critique then i realized i had no right to
me: like of course i am you insulted me tho i let you off pretty easy i think
Xenia: yeah i have no sense of tact
me: its ok one day you will say the wrong thing to someone and you will get a nice lesson heh
Xenia: i have before i just dont think before saying sometimes its ok but sometimes its really shitty and i feel bad
me: like the time u made fun of that guy’s acne in front of sneaky dees then i blogged about it and it pissed you off cos the next day you sobered up and realised how insanely rude and mean that was i will add this portion of the convo to my post
