this is probably what tonite will look like

worst/best performance of my life.

i sat on this since JULY 30 and only brought myself to watch it last week when steph was over and she gave it the thumb’s up so if anyone hurts my feelings over it, her fault. i am completely blameless. thing is, i love a song and i listen to it a lot, i play it over and over and fantasize about being in a movie and this song is playing and then i get ADD and forget about my fantasy, so i have to start the song from the beginning again and get right back into that field of green grass and whimsical sunny sky, perfect pilgrim dress, my fantasy movie stars me and all it is about is me lying down virgin suicides style. point being, i never learn how to sing my fantasy soundtrack songs because i NEVER GET THROUGH THEM IN THEIR ENTIRETY AND THEN I GET BLASTED AND GO TO KARAOKE AND HERE YOU GO YOU’RE WELCOME!

to be fair i actually wasn’t that ripped but i am pretty sure this performance is partly the reason why the bouncer decided matt was (though he wasn’t)(but always appears to be) and also at this exact moment in time the bouncer was telling matt he was cut off. is this one of those full circle moments? i kind of want to erase this from my memory so feel free not to mention anything about it, or the fact that the karaoke host is a dick who constantly tries to upstage me every time i go there and plays this raymi is crazy shtick way too much. anyway, that place is cut off. on to the annex wreckroom.