i keep thinking it’s thursday, yesterday felt like friday, cos i knew fil would be coming home early today. we are going up north for the night for a birthday party which will lead to drinking the entire island. i’m going to try and drink as little as possible, being hungover at family events (saturday) is just not the way to do it, little cousins running up to you, uncles you never see all interested in your life and you are like uuuuuuuuuh is someone playing a tambourine inside your head too? being on my period and in nature is just awesome too, there aren’t bears on this island but there are scary wolf dogs.

i read in some cougar magazine years ago that when women menstruate they dress like whores (not exact wording) some hormone makes them think i have to show cleavage and be the hottest most earthy barefoot goddess (barf on that word) ever, and, it’s true, so right now i am tearing apart my wardrobe (in my mind) so when fil gets home i will be a sexy puked up eccentric rainbow then i’ll start crying because no one understands me.

i dreamt someone was harassing me in my comments and they forgot to clear the form so i found their website, oh wait, that happens all the time. anyway, their website sucked and they were ugly.

blog dreams, my favourite, consume my entire life much!?

i like how in my comments my mom said she likes that red shirt painting i did, because i was high as hell when i drew it. yeah mom, just some of the trimmings and trappings you get from reading your daughter’s blog.

i’ve been sort of ignoring you too, did you notice?

she told my dad about my numbness episode and got him going he totally worries about me and so i’ve been deleting all her comments and not replying to emails.

one time at my nana’s i can’t remember what i said but my mom went LORD, TAKE ME NOW in this totally overwhelmed southern belle tone of voice and since then my brother and i have added it to our burn collection, we immitate it every chance we get around her and pretend we are on a fainting couch haha.