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ok so you know how i used to complain about tingly fingers and arms and legs and numbness and loss of sensation and i thought it was because of zoloft and boozing and then i had a cat scan and an MRI and saw a neurologist and he is like there is nothing wrong and your white blood cell count is totally normal, then i went off zoloft and the numbness went away mostly? anyway, it came back yesterday in a major way, so we have concluded that i am allergic to dogs, cos it happens when they come near me, fil’s dad’s dog, tons of hair, tons of slobber, tons of big dog all over me and i can’t feel anymore. so i’m going to see an allergy specialist or whoever i go to tell my ridiculous story to. it so sucks not being able to feel the ground beneath you when you are walking in a forest or field or on a boat and you walk into shit cos you can’t feel where it is and you can’t feel burning hot water, dangerous. and you can’t feel your hair that blows especially if you have long beautiful hair like i do. i was all oh yeah this thing happens where i lose all ability to feel anything when dogs come near me i can’t feel their fur and it was like duh you have an allergy, genius.

we were walking to mr. sub in stayner on our way back and i almost keeled over on my ankle because the parking lot had a bit of slope to it you know when you are walking down the stairs in the dark and you forget how many stairs there are so on the last one when you are on ground level you do that gay leg/foot stair/air-test to see if there is one more stair or not and there isn’t so you are frozen tapping at nothing like a moron, that’s how i am walking around right now how depressed are you for me?

i guess that stair-test thing is sort of like a meme, everyone does it, no one really talks about it, sorry i exposed you stair-test.

zit update: it is big and mean and painful and i keep touching it and i will most likely explode it into the mirror before i have a bath then have a red moustache for the rest of the nite. basically i thought about my zit 80% of the weekend when people were talking to each other or to me in my head it was like zit zit zit planet mars zit etc.