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forgotten works

everything is kind of a mess right now. you share so much with everybody and the moment when you have the most to share you just can’t bring yourself to say anything. things are in-flux, so much is going on and so much isn’t. when your personal life is out there for the world and daily you do your song and dance, when things change all the sudden you haven’t a clue what you’re supposed to do anymore. i feel like it’s nobody’s business but my own but when my business is getting on the noisebox what the hell right? do i explain my silence? i think compulsion is the only thing that drives this blog really. not so much solely narcissism or knowing there is a captive audience, when it comes down to it, when i keep my thoughts to myself i kind of go insane. this is my release. this is my grief this is my fucking obligation? saying nothing doesn’t help, it just gets people concerned while saying something, albeit wickedly vague also gets their backs up.

i would just like to simply say FUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKK.

my advice is this: do not ever pretend, do not ever live for anyone else and always be yourself no matter what. do not be silenced, nor shamed.

it will all work out in the end.

or whatever joshmosh99 on youtube says it better:

thisis stupid i want to c VAGINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

34 thoughts on “forgotten works”

  1. it’s not easy to even try to understand or relate to what’s going on with you but people care, worry, and will wait not for things to “get better” but for you to feel better.

    you inspire me all day long, i heart you no matter what.

  3. I was just telling @zenforlunch two days how much I admired you and this evolving work of art. It is cast in a strange language, and both shrewd in mystery and overexposing, but that is why we love to read you.

  4. Whatever it is that you’re going thru, I hope it turns out exactly the way you want…and if not…well, honey, I hope you at least end up feeling okay with it. Krista is right…people DO care and worry about you…and we all want for you to feel better and be happy.

    I may never have met you in person, but I’ve been reading your blog for yearssssssssss. And I know you’ve come a VERY long way over the years. Stay strong. Do NOT change WHO you are. EVER. Finding compromise with someone or within a situation is oen thing. But don’t ever compromise what you hold dear to your heart or yourself. Believe in yourself. Believe in the choices you are making. Believe that EVERYTHING happening around you can be changed if you want it to.

    “Whatever you are not changing, you are choosing.”

    xoxox

  6. Your advice pretty much sums up how I am trying to live.

    Sending positive thoughts in your direction. (Sounds cheesy but meant genuinely.)

  7. I have also read your blog for a couple of years now and you have been a great inspiration. I think you said it best…

    do not ever pretend, do not ever live for anyone else and always be yourself no matter what. do not be silenced, nor shamed.

    Wise words, it at least appears to me that you live by them.

    …at the very least it does all work out in the end, it has to :)

  10. Dont let’em get you down, whomever they may be…
    Your genius, passion, creative eye, kooky presence and general hotness will keep you on top and with a myriad of choices on where to go and what to do.

    Or, fuck it…go get a beer.

  11. oh.
    well at least you know you are a slammin hot bitch.
    i dont know. I wannt to like hug you or something because I love you and want to help and wish you well and maybe I can relate.
    good luck.

  13. i’m sorry.

    you’re so right, even if you don’t talk about it, people know when something is going on. i know from personal experience that it’s hard to balance blog/personal life. it’s really hard to know where to draw the line when you’re compelled to be so open. i never felt like there was any point to being a “diarist” if i wasn’t completely honest.

    when i started blogging i would always promise boyfriends that even though i blogged everything else, i would never post anything personal about them or the relationship. i felt (rightly so) that though i was putting myself out there for all to see/read, the people i had relationships with had a right to privacy. same goes for family members.

    then i realized when a person is so much a part of my life that i hardly do anything that doesn’t involve them, it’s nearly impossible to keep the relationship out of it — even if i never specifically said anything about the state of the relationship, one could read between the lines and garner certain info..

    if there were something i could do to help, i would try. you seem like a decent person, and you’ve definitely helped me out a time or two.

  15. Whoa!!!
    Heavy!!!
    Two things:
    One…..
    Clearly you realize you have to say something. I always knew you were smart. Remember it’s just as important you say it to the right person.
    Two…..
    I disagree with one of your five points of advice; “do not ever live for anyone else”. William, Kathryn and Colleen would be bummed if i subscribed to that one!!!
    Stay cool
    Love
    Birdman

  17. then why oh why do we (women)get wrapped up in the above mentioned advice…because men are stubborn! ;-)

    Really though, I have had to make many sacrifices in order to make my man happy to be with me. He can easily take it all away by moving home to his country, (which he periodically threatens if he gets homesick…) I live with it and change everything he wants changed in order to keep him…is this a showing of how much I love him or how pathetic I have become as someone’s girlfriend…

  22. Whatever you’re dealing with just remember that things always have a way of working out in the end. People often underestimate their own emotional strength. Keep your head up, girlie! You inspire so many of your readers each day, (whether you mean to or not) hopefully we can give some positive feelings back to you.

    “When we change the way we look at things, the things we look at change.”

  25. i respect you for keeping the things to yourself that you feel you need to. i also appreciate that you are so open with the world. your blog has been so encouraging for me and has helped me gain a lot of confidence in being myself and being open. so thank you for that! i hope everything works out well for you.

  26. you’re one of the most inspiring, brilliant strong people i (not really know know, but you know what i mean..) know. the fact that you make yourself so present and out there on the web is amazing and must be hard every single day when shit like this happens. feel better soon. we’ve all got your back!

  30. Goody, blogging Australia, finally.
    Firstly, Punctuation.
    I know, I know, more important things, right?

    But seriously…
    You have to blog with a twang, blog through your nose.
    And no variation in the tone, alright?
    And swat flies away.

    And we all down here hope that your shit gets back together again, in an orderly manner, very soon.
    And we mean that most sincerely.

  32. i have to say, your mother is poison
    she’s likely the reason you have so many issues – deep seated anger and anxiety which is so obvious in the blog
    i feel so badly for girls like you whose catty mothers treat them as a competitive friend instead of the most beautiful, accepted person on the planet who comes first in thought and action – it shadows most of their adult lives and fucks up relationships with others – men and women
    their divorces they wear like a crown embittered by them for life in some fashion, even when outwardly they’ve ‘moved on’
    the passive agressive shit is like cyanide
    anyway, i haven’t always liked your blog to be honest
    but i think you are unique
    good luck

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