domestic blog post

i have not eaten all day long last i ate was yesterday afternoon i have pictured eating a million things the last three hours, it is sober nite i guess fil is going to have kd and i wanted to go eat at a restaurant he said no i said fine i will go alone if i have to then i imagined a thousand visions of me sitting alone on a patio starving out of my mind and feeling awkward and people are talking to me. cid barfed on the floor twice, hairballs, i left them there for fil to clean up.

i don’t want to go to a movie cos then fil marches us there and i have to eat a sandwich while walking and the entire world pisses me off then i am sitting in a movie theatre totally flustered and i put my face in a bag of popcorn and if someone laughes a little too loudly i will think all these insane things to write about them in my blog tomorrow.

i’m writing something for vice but today i was just too depressed to do anything and something else came up, i have a good deal of it finished the tone is “too serious” so i am psyching myself the fuck out about it, it’s a guide you know their a-z guides, if i get too over-worked about it i’ll take out the a-z part and just i dunno organize it differently. i will finish it in the morning.

oh fil is home i will let you know what he thinks about cid’s barf party on the floor. oh he doesn’t care.