raymi, the blog arena is a fucking disaster. people think they are engaged in social interaction… but it is just bullshit. fuck this social paradigm. get out while you can.

and sure i could just accept the fact that it exists and deal with it like any cool/casual person would.
that is not what is happening here.

imposition is part of everything. -keith

i couldnt tell if yer comment was dissing me or not (in your comment on my blog) -raymi

nah, it wasn’t dissing you.

i happen to think that you must be an interesting person based on the evidence. but even if i was dissing you… who gives a shit?

in the name of being an affable chap i will explain in a less rant-like way what i was saying. (i am just going to assume that you care)

i don’t understand why people idolize other people… which is what many people seem to do with you… you are able to articulate the things they think in their fucked up little under-powered angst brains and they dig you for it… i believe that someone looking at you and thinking that you “get it” is just a complete misunderstanding of existence on their part… there is nothing to get… talented people are just recognizing elements of their situation and improvising interesting things… any number of people can be said to “get it” just because they are perceptive… there is nothing that a perceptive person is actually getting… they are just improvising using their wit. (i don’t claim to know anything about you in your actual life… this is all stemming from what i have observed in this fetid-shit realm of blog-world) so some people, as you were saying, want to be on the inside of the abrasive shell that you put up… and making a comment along those lines or expres
sing that interest makes them lame, unless you were some tortured guy that had been in jail and some hot gentle chick fell in love with you and dropped the “let me in line”… but that is not what is going on here… if people say shit like that it is lame. if they want to be on the inside then they should be clutch and honest enough to get on the inside and if they can’t do that then they should shut the fuck up and spend time with less interesting people that they can handle.

the only thing that could be construed as me making fun of you was saying that responding to insecure -pussy-people’s critiques of your way of being was a pussy move in itself. but moves like that are unavoidable… we are all insecure on certain levels…

and to highlight the complementary aspect… i meant to point out that you seem to have a natural edge on people and that the criticism that you recieve probably stems from them sensing that they are inferior.

and in a related area of thought

i fucking hate emails and i hate blogs because the disjointed dialectics that this medium breeds just don’t work in the way that i want my interactions to work… there are always problems with interpretation and tone and all sorts of bullshit that isn’t nearly as much of a problem in the face-to-face.

but now this, like the ambiguous comment, is getting up to the length of chore-reading.

-Keith

you ask a question and answer it in the same sentence

im manic and what i put on my blog is just an exercise and not me being pussy
it’s material dude
and i rarely do the emo interpretation posts like i use to so when i DO do em they stand out and seem juvenile i suppose
no one has ever said let me in to me
writing that on my blog was the first time i have ever said/written it
i think i was trying to puff myself up perhaps
but all those conversations did happen
and i dont have a wall up it’s just the way i have always been
insecurity and above itness and boredom
i also can be very shy and people forget that so they take me as being snobby and all that other shit bla bla i don’t take myself as being complex, pretty straight forward but if other people want to see me as a mystery that’s nice
makes for good movie material
bye -raymi

ALSO ONE OF MY MOST FAVORITE POSTS

thora birch as boner. probably one of my greater posts i don’t think i can top it well maybe if i wrote about ants with gigantic dicks or something i am drunk still can you tell?