dear everyone thank you for your condolences that is very nice of you i am glad i have a blog so i can VIRTUALLY GRIEVE ALRIIIGHT!

anyway

i slept over at my dad’s last nite on the couch and after all the wine i drank i have acid reflux like a motherfuck, today is the viewing and tomorrow there is another one then the service then the reception. there were tears last nite, my grandma’s death seems to have surfaced some undealt with emotions from my grandpa’s death eleven years ago.

i know i will probably lose it tonite and tomorrow it’s not the sadness of death or anything cos she had a long happy full rich life and then some it’s the seeing my dad cry shit that gets to me, seeing my brother cry too, that might be worse. we were those siblings that made fun of each other for crying during movies and now that we are more in-touch with our emotions there’s still a bunch of immaturity present so it’s like this retarded laugh crying crap i dunno.

in other news i haven’t shaved my bikini area in over a month and it is like insert name of movie set in a jungle and next week i am either going to have it waxed or buy one of those lipstick shaver things that women can use for their moustaches also. the other nite fil trimmed his nethers to try and get the ball rolling and i am like whatever dude still not shaving ha ha.