raymi says:

there are all these people outside in the hall and they are talking

raymi says:

ok now they’re going to their apts

raymi says:

wow i am a lunatic

raymi says:

im like, “there are PEOPLE TALKING”

merkley??? says:

what is your biggest fear

raymi says:

being buried alive

merkley??? says:

do you have dreams about that?

merkley??? says:

how much time do you spend worrying

raymi says:

not really, i inherited the fear from that bill murray movie, scrooged and also kill bill helped

merkley??? says:

what is your number one favorite movie?

raymi says:

professional or lebowski

raymi says:

but everyone copied me and like lebowski now too so i dunno

raymi says:

dirty rotten scoundrels or honey i shrunk the kids

merkley??? says:

dirty rotten scoundrels rules

merkley??? says:

how many times have you seen the three amigos?

raymi says:

4

merkley??? says:

not bad

merkley??? says:

should be 10

merkley??? says:

how many times have you seen raising arizona

raymi says:

when i was younger i saw it a lot, like 7

raymi says:

your questions are boring and unimaginative

merkley??? says:

so are your answers

merkley??? says:

ha ha

raymi says:

try harder

raymi says:

think…existential

raymi says:

no fuck that, that’s gay

merkley??? says:

you have to make one type of vegetable into a shirt and wear it for one week — what vegetable and how do you make it

merkley??? says:

see what you get

raymi says:

corn, i’d use the husks

merkley??? says:

too scratchy

merkley??? says:

you’d be all blisters

raymi says:

the inside parts?

merkley??? says:

the hairy stuff

merkley??? says:

turns to mush

raymi says:

ok well then celery, i’s use the string and painstakingly sew a shirt, like fine woven gold

raymi says:

it would take like ten years

merkley??? says:

you should do that

raymi says:

yeah right like i have the patience

merkley??? says:

you suck at being interviewed — why do you think that is?

raymi says:

you suck at giving interviews why do you think that is?

merkley??? says:

i think i am an excellent interviewer

raymi says:

ok i have a burning question for you why are you such a fag?

merkley??? says:

why are YOU such a fag?

raymi says:

because your mom begged me to fag her off last nite

merkley??? says:

my mom said you smell weird

raymi says:

nice interview merkley!

raymi says:

ok

raymi says:

uh

raymi says:

am i pretty?

merkley??? says:

very

merkley??? says:

next question

merkley??? says:

there you go

merkley??? says:

ask questions about you

raymi says:

why am i pretty?

merkley??? says:

well for many obvious reasons but mostly because there is nobody like you

merkley??? says:

and you know that

merkley??? says:

and you are intense

raymi says:

if i were a flower what flower would i be

merkley??? says:

thats a GAY question

raymi says:

YOU ARE A GAY QUESTION

merkley??? says:

and i dont keep up on flowers

merkley??? says:

what do you smell like right now

merkley??? says:

that will help

raymi says:

hot garbage

merkley??? says:

i smell like butter

merkley??? says:

haha

merkley??? says:

or something tasty

merkley??? says:

next questiona about you

raymi says:

what endangered animal am i

merkley??? says:

some kind of mischeivious dingo type striped laughing hyena deal half dog half cat

raymi says:

thanks

merkley??? says:

ha ha

merkley??? says:

its good in my brain

merkley??? says:

why — what do you wish i said?

raymi says:

uh blue footed booby bird

raymi says:

boobie?

merkley??? says:

youu need arms and legs

merkley??? says:

and you need to be somewhat intimidating

merkley??? says:

boobie aint intimidating

raymi says:

ok some kind of dinosuar like those ltitle ones the size of chickens that run super fast

merkley??? says:

ha ha

merkley??? says:

what animal am i?

merkley??? says:

dont just say something smartassey

raymi says:

why not

raymi says:

you are that smarmy arrogant caterpillar from alice in wonderland who smokes on that mushroom

merkley??? says:

i always get some bull from alice in wonderland

merkley??? says:

usually cheshire cat

dan: when people are insane do they know they’re insane?

raymi: no they dont

dan: How do you know for sure?

raymi: crazy people think theyre sane, sane people think they’re crazy

dan: What about the ones on the border. The ones that are either crazy or geniuses.. but it’s difficult to tell?

raymi: they are a toss-up, you’d have to analyze their actions and the way they speak and productivity and capacity to function

dan: Eh, insane people can still be able to function and be productive, so I don’t think that’s an accurate guage. Some people who’ve thought to have been mad have turned out to have been right years after they’ve been stoned to death or whatever in the past. Do you think you’re insane?

raymi: is this why u’r asking me? i know i am eccentric and i am a genius technically and also creative and i have a chemical imbalance/bi-polar and manic depression and i am bored very very easily so sometimes i am crazy sometimes i am not, i am more uncrazy than crazy, make sense?

dan: Just curious is all. Used to have a really close friend that was
similar, very intelligent, very creative and chemically imbalanced..
bored extremely easily.

If you’re aware of these personality traits though, do you work on
changing them..or even care to? ie. when you are being crazy… do you
know and just do it anyway and throw care to the wind, or do you do it
and realize later that it was a crazy thing to do?

raymi: well the mania phase of bipolar is what makes u do crazy things, im over that part now. now i just have depression and i drink to dilute my mania but sometimes when i am with a large group of people and i am drunk i do obnoxious loud things that i think are funny, but i always did that, even when little and without being drunk, it’s just the way i am

i think i might be partly autistic/tourette’s cos sometimes i make beep and meow noises out of nowehere to fill the void

i am also OCD and i group letters of words in sentences to determine whether the sentence is odd or even and sometimes it gets out of hand, i fiddle with my fingers a lot yeah

dan: don’t really know much about bi-polar… my previous friend did go
through a phase of drinking heavily at one point

drinking does make you feel great though… do you have trouble
getting up in the mornings sometimes? I find I’m that way when
depressed.

eh, obnoxious loud things are just cries for attention, we both know that =)

tourette’s isn’t moreso to fill the void… my bro has a light case
of it… it’s more like an itch you need to scratch rather than doing
something to fill the void

I’m pretty sure I’ve got some kinda OCD/ADD as well, but then again I
think those are just labels to define behaviour that’s useful in
certain situations, and not in others that society deems so.

Are you nervous/anxious a lot? Could be why you twiddle your
fingers…. or maybe just too much caffeine?

raymi: yeh i drink lots of caffeine and i do get anxious in certain situations

dan: Yeah caffeine could do it… and everyone gets anxious in certain situations.

i think i’m getting sick. i made it so i have to moderate comments, why didn’t i think of this before? we didn’t do anything last nite other than watch tv. and i made a killer pasta, like, amazing.

tony and i discuss things

this kid is the best, i bet he would carry my purse for me when i went ’round to the shoppes and he could beat up every emo fag we pass.

anyway i forgot to tell you about the worstest thing i ate yesterday, it was some ramen noodle style asian concoction but the broth tastes like chocolate beef stew? i already threw out the package so i can’t tell you what it’s called but like, if i wanted chocolate flavored ramen noodles i would maybe uh, put chocolate in my ramen noodles. it’s my fault tho i guess cos there wasn’t any english on the package and i thought hmm brown that must be delicious-tasting! i want my 1.29 back.

i’m starting to hate that fucking juicer.

when i lived in brooklyn we had one and i think i didn’t mind cleaning it cos we had a million roommates and i wasn’t paying rent so i had to clean out of obligation plus it gave me something to do while being a shut-in so yeah now i just want to bring it up to the top of the building and pitch it over FUCK THAT THING IN ITS STUPID ASS! 25 bucks for ten lbs of fruit = a tiny not even full jug of juice AND i have to prep all the fruit and feed it into the machine then clean the fucking machine and touch all that yuck i think i should’ve got fil those shoes instead. sorry fil.

also, yesterday i cut my finger chopping apples, can i sue kenmore because of that?

dear kenmore, your juicer caused me to slice off my finger, what are you going to do to compensate me?

anyway, i’ve been experiencing some incredibly interesting bowel movements lately.