porkn says:

have you missed talking to me?

raymi says:

no

raymi says:

did u go away or something

i dunno about this wearing red business i mean i like the concept but this shirt i have i was going to wear has wine stains on it, i will probably wear it anyway.

maybe i will show up wearing blue.

i am going to call and see if it will be at andy’s i hope i don’t sound like a pipsqueak.

“uh could i quite possibly have an internet web site party there please?”

i was just about to get a great video of this woman doing tai chi in the park but her tai chi super powers sensed what i was up to and she immediately stopped and took off. the best part was that she had a fuschia beret on and a leather jacket!

fil and i’s favorite new thing is to ask each other if we “are in an adventure” when really the other person is just sitting there reading a pamphlet or opening the fridge door, the more boring and plain the task, the better the adventure MUST BE! and then when the person says no you’re suppose to go aw like you are extremely sad that the person isn’t having an adventure.

i think my mental illness is rubbing off on fil.

cid bit me on the head yesterday, not the face, not the chin, on my fucking HEAD!

fil doesn’t want to hang out with me later when we GO ON AN ADVENTURE to get his haircut and me have my lip pierce done did so i think i will go play megatouch but then i panic and think OH NO SOMEONE WILL BE PLAYING IT WHEN I GET THERE so i’ll have to sit at the bar and act like i intended to sit at this bar to talk to acquaintances, like oh yes i came all the way from toronto to eat wings totally awesome!

maybe i’ll just take the train back, i dunno. something tells me in some shape or form that i will be able to manipulate fil into letting me hang out with him and i know he doesn’t want me to cos i will take all of the attention away from him and/or ignore him completely by playing megatouch and shoot him dirty looks here and there.

last nite we got in a fight over the not hanging out because i was wine/gin and tonic sensitive because he was laughing at the situation which i decided to interpret him as laughing at me and i had to go along with my pretend anger and man what a waste of a buzz that was.

being ridiculous is so draining.

fil is going to read this and be like i fucking hate you.

tomorrow i am having my lip piercing changed to a little silver ball.

i just walked to the liquor store ALL BY MYSELF and it was very very cold and i didn’t get carded because i wasn’t wearing mascara so i look haggard and tired which equals old. also i chatted up the cashier about wine. the fact that i went to a female cashier showed bravery. she mentioned some brand of wine i never heard of and i said yep yep i’ve tried it so maybe she made it up to test me and now she is talking smack about me to her co-workers like ha ha that girl said she’s tried the carburator merlot for 7.95. my hearing is bad so i kept having to lean in to hear what the fuck she was saying.

i am too pathetic for this world.

i also bent down to tie my shoe and it was very hard to get back up again because of my intense one hour work-out from last nite and so i’m in this semi-crouch position and pretending i’m looking at wine on the lowest shelf and this old guy wheels his cart into my aisle behind me and i turn slowly still crouching, look up at him and say uhhhh, i worked out last nite, and he just wheeled right on by me.

FUCK YOU ASSHOLE THIS IS THE FIRST VERBAL EXCHANGE I HAVE EXPERIENCED ALL DAY AND I MADE AN EFFORT AND YOU JUST WEEBLE WOBBLE PAST ME WITH YOUR BEARD AND YOUR BEIGE WINTER HOODED JACKET AND GLASSES RAAAAAAAAAAAWR!

ok new rule i have to eat something before going outdoors otherwise people will be set on fire with my mind and their heads will explode off their necks up into the air when i walk by them.

instead of getting completely wasted last nite i exercised! i wore an 80s type exercise outfit and i threw myself around the condo for an hour to stupid music and it was worth it cos i feel better and look better so that’s why i feel better. my spastic workout inspired fil to walk up and down the stairs of the building 4 times.

but then i had the most terrible sleep ever because i guess i can only fall asleep intoxicated so i laid there in bed from 11:30 to 3:30 thinking about orcs pulling my toes out of their sockets one at a time.

ok i know that the ENTIRE city of TORONTO reads MY BLOG and that they fancy themselves TOO COOL to talk to me or acknowledge my EXISTENCE on the streets, that’s FINE! anyway if you don’t BLOOOG or leave me comments you can AT LEAST come to my FUCKING RED PARTY (feb. 17), i am thinking it will be at andy’s pool hall because of the garish lighting and we will WEAR RED so our bodies will be camouflaged (how do you spell that?) and it will just be a bunch of heads and hair and hands – HEADS HAIR AND HANDS PARTY!

anyway, i might have some felt friends there for you to buy and make fun of.

QUEEN ST MAN!

so we’ll see how the bidding for raymitheminx.com turns out. if it works in my favor then i’ll keep using that if not then it’ll be something else, no biggie. however children, i am now currently in the posession of youfuckers.blogspot.com ! oh what magnificent RAPTURE! for now i’m just going to amass the gayest most unflattering of raymi fotos on it.