ok so i had a ct scan today and it was fun and yes i did cry when the needle was put in my vein and i wasn’t anxious at all ‘cos when you are walking into a hospital and you see death and dying all around you, you are like fuck MY pain and hypochondriatic synergy – look at THAT holy SHIT! and the nurse goes are you ok? to me and i said yes i’m just sensitive maybe too sensitive for this world but it doesn’t mean i want to leave it and the fact i am here means that i DO want to be in it and i laughed when this old coot was like JUST DO IT when the nurse was explaining radioactive goo and high blood pressure and being cautious…

i wanted to keep the robe

and i was all yeh my blood might be thin i had some alcoholic beverages last nite and she said whatever and i had stamps and an x on my hand from the killers show w/ ambulance and some other band-thing as well…

so yeh, i think i am going to have a lot of money one day so my dad can quit his job and play music and then everyone can have their own house and i can float to them and away from them.

oh and ps we are also going to clone my cat.