i’m tired of smoking cigarettes though i don’t smoke that much these days and being hunched over a laptop all of the time and i am tired of haveing bipolar mood disorder and i am tired of talking a lot because i am not hunched over a laptop and i am tired of the good weather being out there not hunched over a laptop inside with me and i am tired of being poor and creative and not being headhunted yet and i am tired of the fone ringing with it being a private number the very second after having published this and i answer the fone and the line is silent, i am tired of being paranoid and wanting to save the world and i am tired of the world not saving it’s fucking self and i am tired of the word headhunted ‘cos then it makes me think headhunted like my head being hunted with a gun.

i am tired of a lot of things but mostly i am just tired because i am not sleeping properly at nite because i can’t stop my mind and i have anxiety attacks a lot of the time and i am sexually frustrated and i am tired of worrying about my internal organs and the cyst on my left kidney and finally yes i am having an mri catscan thing and i am still waiting on bloodwork results ‘cos the doctors were all we didn’t know you wanted an aids test wtf!? idiot that’s why i went in the first place. though i am happy to report that i have no stds. that is all for now. and oh yeh the ecg i demanded for my heart said that my heart is fine.

that’s me doing some hoo-haoke

Rayme,

Thanks for the answer. I believe it made my day yesterday and my day was

dying to be made because yesterday sucked.

You know what as far as raise money and I kid you not you should start a

FundraisingRaymi blog and get people to spread the word and campaign for

your blog and the sure thing is many readers I am sure would actually be

glad to help. Ya. Because people on the internet are all fucked up they’d be

more than ready to campaign just because they love your writing.

On this marvelous note I am off to work here in the beautiful town of

Vancouver BC, where people hate me because I speak french and they don’t.

Hahaha.

Peace out

jessica-ex-france-citizen-now-in-canada