Lauren,
Have you ever just found your self sitting there, staring at a waterbug as it swam around in a pond. Seemingly without a course the little fella’s rip around and around, they aren’t smart enough to know why, because they are bugs, but there is part of them, someplace in that fucked up thing we call a double helix that makes them do it. It keeps them safe from predators as they are not on an easy to catch course, as well it helps them to find the food they need to survive.
I’m glad you’re doing better, even if it’s just a bit. You know we’re all little water bugs, either we are water bugs, or we are on a set course. No one person of ANY significance ever took the latter path. You’re finding what it is that you need in life right now, maybe it’s not always a fun trip, but it’s an effective one provided you let yourself absorb the shit along the way. Experience is your food man, and the predators are the pitfalls of conforming to mediocrity.
