im sorry ive been so mean
and moody
and peevish
and grumpy
and bitter
and cruel
and hateful
i just want you to know that underneath it all im very very very very angry
lazy cuss
i dont wait anymore
ive fallen in love with myself so now you can love me. you will fall in love because you will learn the truth
i at least feel that there is some use to be found in what ive come to think of as my so called life and i owe so much more than i could ever pay for how good that’s made me feel.
picturing the hanging man as the only card in the playing deck. not being quite able to claim an identity.
i want to turn into forever i want to be inside forever doubting flesh
yersterday
i saw your face
i felt your skin
beneath this place
we will appear
another day
forever now
i hold your face
come and stay
lets run away
lets leave this hell forever
deeply suspicious of anyone who’d be fool enough to get in touching distance of this poison girl i felt like such a messy, highly reactive creature that i didn’t want people to get near me.
