dear raymi
having a serious down day. everybodys giving me the bullshit talk you’re pretty you’re beautiful you don’t need to work out but i’m having one of those nasty days where i hate everything about myself. (insert pathetic female stereotype here) tried to work out but couldn’t when i caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. one of my friends is attempting to tell me to starve myself for 4-5 days. i don’t know what to do. i just know that i’m hungry and want dinner but am afraid to eat because i don’t even want to work out. what good is that?
im not sure why i’m even emailing you about this you’re just the first person that came to my mind. boyfriend is trying to be comforting but he’s thinner than me. easier said than done. half friends smoke pot all day and eat mcdonalds like nobody’s business, half friends are healthy but don’t giev good advice. some friendds can lose 20 lbs in a week. bahhh. i know results are impossible to find in a weekend but im discouraged. derrrrr
do you drink? if you stop drinking you will lose big time i switched from eating super healthy and drinking every nite to eating garbage and smoking weed and im thinner, i was thin before but this is a different thin. booze makes you bloaty all over. you dont look like a drinker so maybe that’s not yer issue. don’t date skeleton boys, date men, men are hot, boys are irritating. also how are they even attractive i don’t get it what are you a pedophile? kidding. you look like a twig in yer photos so i’m guessing you have issue over the last 5 pounds or something. cut out all carbs. whats yer diet anyway?
i think this is all in your head mostly. thin is a trend big time right now and has been for awhile and it’s not going away. what’s more is there are certain styles of dress that only thin people can wear like sickly unhealthy thin and we all want to get down but we can’t and it sucks it doesn’t mean we have to starve ourselves to auswitch style it just means we can’t wear boyfriend jeans.
i watched the party over the holiday, i’ve seen it a billion times but anyway there’s a part where a bikini-clad chick is in a scene and she has meat on her and it looked good and it was mindblowing to see. that shit just doesn’t fly now. in the fashion world she would be considered fat, sorry, “curvy”. it’s not right but it’s the way it is.
if you aren’t happy, becoming the thin you want to be will not make you happy. i have achieved my goal and i am more miserable than ever, this thin is being wasted and i’m still not satisfied or think it’s good enough. also the older you get and the thinner you become, the older you will look. there’s some pretty hagard-looking skeletors out there, young ones too. so try to do it as healthily as possible. some people can be complete drug addict drinking fast food eating slobs and still look like the bane of health. genetics. you can’t change your dna you can only modify it slightly? no you can’t. you can only whine and complain and irritate your friends about it.
if you complain about something ten times and by the tenth complaint you haven’t done anything about it, all complaining privileges should be revoked. that is my advice. act.
i have soooo many things to complain about my life but i know if i opened my mouth here i’d get shit for it, so i suppress and shove it down and distract myself from it (that’s if i plan the do-nothing route). when i DO plan to do something i write one epic post, we all discuss it then i carry it out and then we discuss it again when it’s done. those should be the only times you get to talk about your little problem 1. when you decide to act and 2. when you have completed fixing it.
