I don’t play the game I made my own

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had my retest today at tmr. overall great improvement. lost inches, lost weight, i’m stronger, can do shit longer and better. so yay. i am winning so my lifestyle is being attacked now by my fitness person, i have no idea how to word this shit but essentially that means i’m more than maintaining. i’m in the fitness area, meaning i am a legit fit person now. it’s real guy.

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omg these chicken soft tacos are the best. this is the soundtrack to my summer right here. i love the brazenhead.

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nails are long still. crap job of them though.

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got dtd yesterday. day time drunk. i was stressed about the three events (i’m a baby) i had to do in one night. i keep saying i am coming out of last week’s bday mess. i went hard the last two weeks actually and now i am shifting gears into fitness and health and beauty. i’ve been inundated with so much fucking gossip and rumours and have learned some hurtful things people in this stupid fucking neighbourhood have been piping up about me, people who’ve never even met me. simultaneous to that is my regular blog trolling nastiness. it is never-ending. i am skimming out the fat, all of it, the useless drama. from now on if you hear something about me don’t waste my time with it, simply tell the teller to go fuck themselves and thank you i am too busy to be dragged down by this drama.

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right, so i was defending DTD.

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i’m going to my dad’s for the weekend. it’s my brother’s 30!th birthday on sunday so i figure i have earned my little burnoutington bubble, it’s been over a month since i last went. shocking.

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i’m stressed to the max and i need space, i need a break. i’m money stressed life stressed status quo stressed gAAAAAH BLAAAAAAAAAAH!

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i’m not ready to be accountable for a relationship yet. i am and i’m not. i just need to drop off without question or explanation like that, defiantly, without the person feeling like i am doing it purposely to them you know? i told the teacher i’ve had my heart broken so many times this past year. it’s steeled me now and made me oh so gruff so when i’m ready to run i just run and i’ll see when you when i get back. i need my distance otherwise i’m going to just be a bitch forever. i don’t even know what’s meant to be private anymore. people say so much shit about me or share all my stories with their own circle and i never get a fucking say but then when i have the audacity to tell their stories it’s meltdown time. arg.

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i liked this vantage, so quarry and it’s so not.

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the guy in this hippie van flashed me a peace sign as he was waiting at the light. should have posed with him. i was too shy.

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guess who left with the flower purse…

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went to crush for a wine auction. taking this photo made them think i was bidding though i was immediately outbid thank goodness, it was up to $890. proper pics of this in my next post.

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tarek’s party was great. i had a lot of mai tais. the appleton dudes were there too great to see them again. i did some cartwheels. stupid fucking brock asked me if was thirty (he was joking) i should have pushed him through a window or left with kevin and brought only kevin to cut copy. pics on this also in next post. saw anita and was like heeey how long have you been here, she’s like, 15 minutes and i quip that’s an hour in fashion world eh? she laughed. touchdown.

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yesterday the city was a moor, so foggy. loved it. look at the cn tower if you can SEE N tower it.

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these baked jerk wings are super duper hot.

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trying to get myself with my mirror, the other shot the teacher took of me doing my behind the scenes self photog diy trickery. no more face lotioning i am breaking out. what do i do?

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my mystery designer specs.

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i did a late night guilty work out to cancel out the cheese wine mai tais and DTD.

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alright alright sorry for the sloppy post off to a meeting.