i like it and i don’t like anything
i wish i could write here without having to get head trippy over it and i wish i could do this without ever having to worry about how it would be perceived. i have moments of totally freeing type until i can’t breathe benders when i realize i have been holding my breath for too long or that i’ve forgotten to blink LIKE JULIET for entire minutes. i just want to be brash and i want to be crass, and vulgar. i feel like everyone’s mind is made up about me enough as is so no matter how dainty i may flukishly come across, it’s still vulgar. see? head trip. basically i should stop thinking about it and just do it.
like sex, can i start talking about that again yet? i learned yesterday that i cannot do that without it adding unnecessary stress to my life. i can’t mislead or make half jokes about anything. what i bring here is taken at face value for what it is, it’s lost on some people that there might be a little more going on. melodie said that i at least get a chance to control how i am perceived and she’s right. non-bloggers do not, their reputations are controlled by the people in the circles by which they run. i hadn’t considered that before.
point being, my ex doesn’t read my blog for a reason so maybe you should respect that and not go running your mouth. did that not occur to you or has there not been enough pain for your entertainment yet? i am not censoring my life any more for fear every single thing i do is going directly back to him. recognize that people operate differently than how you might handle a breakup, being friends/friendly, fucking, or not. it’s not up to you and last i checked we were never dating you.
i guess it boils down to what am i willing to sacrifice for the integrity of my blog?
do i go underground and shut my mouth? or continue exploiting this dog and pony show?
god i should be napping right now i’m in a state of so tired my eyes feel like punches.
i say post what you want and continue calling out the dipshits.
i’been digging your blog: more sasha (+1), more resin raymi, more lil gems of a lazy afternoon.
http://11.media.tumblr.com/sY5wEMNBRi8tkylrqFYpiEGDo1_400.jpg
and i say yes please post about sex
What’s up with the photos of George Bushe’s mail, LOL?
antique store treasure
just be yourself and dont worry what other people think when u blog, and even if u get negative feed back you control the comments so just delete them if u get emails just ignore them.
i dont know why you care so much what other people think, i mean i do whatever i want on my blog of course im not famous as u are, but still. always be yourself.
as far as my own opinion ive always liked everything you post.
i dont even understand WHY u get negative comments at all, i mean if they dont like it why do they even read it?
i guess some people just like being assholes and slag u know.
when people meddle in my business and it affects me personally i do not respond favourably to that.
who gives a shit, right?
kudos to you. blog whatever the hell you want, that’s what makes your blog great/better than so many others. totally understandable that it would be stress inducing to have strangers, or maybe even ppl (who used to be) in your life giving you bull for no reason other than their own assumptions and judgment. fuck ‘em, though. it’s your life, and your blog.
of course, i understand.
There’s a book I want you to read: “The Forest for the Trees”, about writing/publishing. It has some of the best advice for writers I’ve read in ages.
Here’s one quote: “Honest writing always makes people nervous, and they’ll think of all kinds of ways to make your life hell. One day a long time from now you’ll cease to care anymore whom you please or what anybody has to say about you. That’s when you’ll finally produce the work you’re capable of”.
Much Love!
http://www.amazon.com/Forest-Trees-Editors-Advice-Writers/dp/1573228575
you have to write for you. if you were your only blog reader, what would you want to read about? that’s the only person who matters. once you start writing with other people in your head or for the other people in your head then it’s all about how well you can anticipate others’ behaviours and navigate around them. and that’s a skill, yes, but probably not the skill you want to hone and craft. you’re a writer, not a PR agent. how exhausting for you! people who meddle are passive-aggressive freaks who have too much time on their hands!
you shouldn’t even be questioning what you write about on YOUR blog. everyone has an opinion of everyone else and it’s all based on what they see in themselves. everyone wants to project their morals and values on everybody else in this world and none of them want to question whether or not they’re wrong for doing so. YOU ARE YOU and will always be you and there will always be ppl out there who don’t agree with what you do, but tough chickens. you’re not about to mold yourself to someone else’s ideals because they are constantly trying to ram them down your throat. opinions can be, and frequently are, wrong.
everytime you let someone hurt you or piss you off with their opinions, you are giving them power over yourself. never do that. we are all different and we all experience life and emotions and tragedies etc differently and no one has the right to judge someone else for being different.
this is lamely long, but this pisses me off about reading your blog sometimes. there are some people out there who enjoy reading your blog because it is an extension of you and you are different and it is interesting seeing through someone else’s eyes from time to time. i don’t always agree with stuff you say or do or wear or eat, but i’m not gonna ambush your comments section and try to make you ashamed of yourself. you’re expressing yourself, not me, not anyone else.
in summation: you are beautiful and do what you want no matter how much slack you get from the nay-sayers.
More importantly…
What brand/colour is your nailpolish in the George Bush’s mail picture??
Btw I love reading your blog. As a totally uninvested reader the more personal the better (entertainment wise). But of course it’s your actual life so I can see why you’d hold back.
people are always gonna be petty about you and your life and that sucks. *hug*
i gotta say i feel like non-bloggers have WAY the hell more control over their reputations all around, like it’s the total opposite of that statement
oooooOOOoooo am in love with the ring and leopard shrug/shawl. did you purchase!?
errrr i mean, what is it called? a capelet??
So lemme get this straight…You blog an innocent comment about “guy I am bangin'” and some shithead reads and runs to Px to tell on you?
Some people have no clue how to be cool.
Raymi, I have been reading your blog for 6 years. All I, really, can say to this post is, have them blow you. Fuck it, care about who you love, not who you do not know. People will be making judgments and remarks about you until the end. Stop worrying now, you will be pretty fuckin better off. It’s only gonna get worse, beautiful. And I don’t say that condescendingly or in a creepy way. You are just beautiful, and the people who realize, understand or see this are the people who truly matter. People will say shitty remarks for shit reasons and should be swept out of all of our heads, Because are they really affecting your Life or your Mind? Is this who many are going nuts? But who am I to say. Many of us are just a butterfly among birds. You have opened up in the past about sex, mental tribulations, family issues, partners, very personal things. None of it is new, at least not the subjects. Just do it! Not that I’m saying this to want to know everything, it’s just that this seems to me to be art, somehow, blog-style. And I would hate for it to go down that road of familiarity and commercialism, per-sEHH. Well, all for me, Night
Haha peking-duck how high are you, too? or am I aloooooooooooone