yay!

guess what everyone it’s 4.51am and i’m having an anxiety attack, killer fun!

no more booze for me!

ungh my eyes and head i want to sleep fil is up too getting ready to go take pictures of pitt’s right to play marathon, he’s watching some thing on the holy grail knights templar like how much does one really need to know about those cats god there’s like hundreds of different mini docs about them essentially saying the same shit i think watching one will make you good and informed, no? i woke up fil rooting through his night table looking for ativan (leftover from my nola trip i am NOT a chill traveler) and he’s all in a panic saying it’s in the other drawers i take one (i think they’re point 5s, not much) and he’s like i wish you would have waited a half hour when my alarm went off oh i’m sorry for being so selfish with my panic attack right now haha.

i also ate like a pig yesterday maybe all that chocolate fountain chocolate went straight to my brain. i ate a sausage before they were “officially” serving dinner and got told off by the help and then this dude sees me coming up the stairs with it and says where did you get that so i show him the spread downstairs and say you will not believe your eyes when you see it and then he gets in trouble too stuffing a hamburger in his mouth pretending to be mournful about it going oh i’m so sorry shove stuff stuff chew chew swallow really truly terribly sorry chew chew swallow, it was funny.