i don’t want to make you jealous but i was up all nite barfing and reading bust magazine on the bathroom floor then barfing more and we didn’t even party or anything last nite, my body just can’t deal anymore i guess, and don’t worry i spent a good deal of time thinking about every possible what the fuck is wrong with me scenario so don’t go off on me, i have an ultrasound early january so i will get to the bottom of it, until then i get to scare myself to the extreme and i am not drinking tonite for fil’s party so that should be real fun and on top of it we get a snowstorm. ps. email me raymitheminx@gmail.com for info if you haven’t already.
i would have been sobbing, it was at that point, but i didn’t want to wake up the world, the workd being fil, who was already partially awake anyway, and then cid unleashed a world of spew on the livingroom floor hisself.
the nite before i had barely five hours sleep so being awake last nite/this morning at 4am it was getting to the anxiety attack/hallucinations/going crazy point, there is just way too much time for introspection when you’re cross-legged on the bathroom floor shivering in your underwear feeling your stomach for possible aliens inside of you.
and i was retching and there was nothing to retch out so this leads me to believe it’s booze/food-related, hopefully? or a virus? how many times do i say i am never eating such and such again and then i do it anyway.
my eyes were so bloodshot i was like oh well at least i look like satan.
i’m truly elbowing britt in the nose here cos she slammed me in the face with her dancing elbows.
drunk email…yes! hope you enjoy!
Dearest Raymi,
I decided that I should drunk email you because I am a chicken shit and couldn’t do it otherwise (i.e. SOBER).
I love you and your blog and am waiting to get my copy of your book in the mail.
I am currently a 25 year old in the process of loosing my mind. I need your advice on how to get back on track. You have made it thus far and are successful at entertaining the masses and I would like to know what’s the best way to get up and running again? I’m not looking for mass approval, simply some personal satisfaction.
I’ve read your archives all the way through and feel like I can identify with what you’ve experienced, aside from the HOT go-go dancing days!
I have all the key things in place, i.e. home, job(s), work, animals, boyfriend, etc but something is missing. Do you ever feel this way? I am in no need of anything and yet still can’t stop feeling terrible. All I seemingly want to do is party and meet people und get fucked up.
Regardless, you are a beautiful girl (even without your tan and with the greasy hair!) who has gotten her dominoes all in a line and I could use some of your pointers. I’ll take any advice you have to give. I mean the “diet” adivce works already (i’ve lost 4lbs on your thinking alone)!
I look forward to reading your blog as always and hope all is well with you lady and Phil and Cid.
Best wishes, B
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thanks henry, thought i don’t do pills.
