i am super bummed it’s not the battery that was the problem with my camera, it’s the camera that’s wrong with the camera. LE SIGH. i don’t even feel like blogging today i’ve been feeling kind of blah towards it for awhile now probably started when i busted fil’s camera.

trying to select the most emotional song to play over and over today. it is very windy.

my dad’s house is neat it is four levels, has two basements and the previous owner left behind all this great old junk, an old projector, a fridge from the beginning of time, basement bar paraphernalia, a super old tv and so on.

fil went to this great deli and got 549 grams of smoked beef and we ate too much of it last nite i felt like everything about me smelled like meat it was pretty overwhelming we gave some to cid and he turned feral. then we were watching intervention and i said fil move your leg i have to look at cid so he moved his leg for a second then i asked do you like that i have to look at cid sometimes and fil said yes that is the extent of our conversations on sunday nite.

speaking of intervention last nite’s was over the top, it was about this girl cutter but the camera angles were all arty and totally stupid like egging this chick on and she’s down to her leopard print bra/undies and cutting her stomache and wipes the blood all over her face OK. her parents are complete christian fuck ups too instead of helping her deal with being molested for many years they pray for her and other people in the community prayed for her and they thought that would fix it, her dad totally sucked i don’t know why the interventionist didn’t call him on his bible shit. praying is selfish, when you pray you think you are praying for someone else when really you are just praying to ease your own mind which DOES NOTHING WHATSOEVER FOR THE PERSON WHO NEEDS THE HELP. praying is a waste of time. when they were all finished saying their please get help speeches the girl was like OK the end. plus her boyfriend was like the age of her dad and she is younger than me. i could go on more about this but i would just end up annoying myself more than i already am.

aw fil said he is buying me a new camera on his lunchbreak it will be my birthday present now i don’t have to kill myself.