there was a foreign lady white but something slavic maybe and she got on my nerves cos she took ten hours ahead of me figuring out her change but i was patient anyway finally get down to the subway and she gets on my train with the aid of some guy who says oh this one no it’s that one no no it IS this one and so she smiles and gets on and i feel bad about my feeling angry for three seconds and then there is this other woman who is not very good looking or very bad looking but mostly the former and she is with her boyfriend and she is dressed kind of lower class, not that it’s any matter to me how much money anyone has it’s just a detail i’m factoring into my observation, anyhow she is sneering at the foreign woman and her body language is all I AM BETTER THAN SHE IS and she’s shaking her head and she says to her manfriend SHES ON THE WRONG TRAIN THE WRONG TRAIN and i look up at the map and see that no she isn’t on the wrong train, she plans to go to lawrence west and our train was on the correct line

anyway i know this is stupid, i have nothing to write about myself right now so i’m writing about other people

so, i guess what i was experiencing was something like anger transference or something and passing the buck to pimple face uglyhead and i felt like leaning over and correcting her but well, it wasn’t worth it, well for people like me it is cos i dig arguing but maybe i was feeling like a classist or it would make me look like one if i said anything, anyway, i was siding with the foreigner and everytime that chick shook her head at the nice oblivious whatever lady i got madder and madder and madder.

then i started thinking FUCK maybe that’s what I look like when i’m being all cunty and negative wow that sucks.

maybe the iud thing is making me crabby i dunno but i am drinking wine now to celebrate it.