dan: when people are insane do they know they’re insane?

raymi: no they dont

dan: How do you know for sure?

raymi: crazy people think theyre sane, sane people think they’re crazy

dan: What about the ones on the border. The ones that are either crazy or geniuses.. but it’s difficult to tell?

raymi: they are a toss-up, you’d have to analyze their actions and the way they speak and productivity and capacity to function

dan: Eh, insane people can still be able to function and be productive, so I don’t think that’s an accurate guage. Some people who’ve thought to have been mad have turned out to have been right years after they’ve been stoned to death or whatever in the past. Do you think you’re insane?

raymi: is this why u’r asking me? i know i am eccentric and i am a genius technically and also creative and i have a chemical imbalance/bi-polar and manic depression and i am bored very very easily so sometimes i am crazy sometimes i am not, i am more uncrazy than crazy, make sense?

dan: Just curious is all. Used to have a really close friend that was
similar, very intelligent, very creative and chemically imbalanced..
bored extremely easily.

If you’re aware of these personality traits though, do you work on
changing them..or even care to? ie. when you are being crazy… do you
know and just do it anyway and throw care to the wind, or do you do it
and realize later that it was a crazy thing to do?

raymi: well the mania phase of bipolar is what makes u do crazy things, im over that part now. now i just have depression and i drink to dilute my mania but sometimes when i am with a large group of people and i am drunk i do obnoxious loud things that i think are funny, but i always did that, even when little and without being drunk, it’s just the way i am

i think i might be partly autistic/tourette’s cos sometimes i make beep and meow noises out of nowehere to fill the void

i am also OCD and i group letters of words in sentences to determine whether the sentence is odd or even and sometimes it gets out of hand, i fiddle with my fingers a lot yeah

dan: don’t really know much about bi-polar… my previous friend did go
through a phase of drinking heavily at one point

drinking does make you feel great though… do you have trouble
getting up in the mornings sometimes? I find I’m that way when
depressed.

eh, obnoxious loud things are just cries for attention, we both know that =)

tourette’s isn’t moreso to fill the void… my bro has a light case
of it… it’s more like an itch you need to scratch rather than doing
something to fill the void

I’m pretty sure I’ve got some kinda OCD/ADD as well, but then again I
think those are just labels to define behaviour that’s useful in
certain situations, and not in others that society deems so.

Are you nervous/anxious a lot? Could be why you twiddle your
fingers…. or maybe just too much caffeine?

raymi: yeh i drink lots of caffeine and i do get anxious in certain situations

dan: Yeah caffeine could do it… and everyone gets anxious in certain situations.