i was just going to step out to get something to eat from the restaurant next door but i think that it might be on fire right now. there’s a firetruck parked outside. too bad. it’s the only place i can go in town which isn’t bar-style where i wouldn’t feel like a complete fucking loser if i ate by myself.
i just cannot eat alone out in public, you have to make this big showy act of not seeming completely anxious and nervous and it’s like your being aloneness makes everyone notice you ten times more and the fact that i will look like the token strange fucked up girl with problems doesn’t help much.
it’s probably a good thing that the place is on fire.
phew.
i think i’ll eat a beer instead.
