above photo, not crackdale

well u have to go, crackdale. u have to be assessed. and the medical shit takes so long. go to your family doctor and talk to him/her and tell em to refer you someplace. there are so many people who are all anti-doctors but dude, seriously, they’re doctors for a reason

if there is a chemical imbalance in your brain in your soul

that is something you cannot possibly talk yourself out of, u know what i mean

i felt the same way

for a long time

my rationalizing no meds was all, why and how can some funny little pill fix me when i am still drowning in my sorrows, the pill makes me think i am cloud 9 whilst still surfing in the seventh circle of hell

when really, crack, it helps you function and get thru yer pain

and not ever forget it

at least go talk to someone

take it from a 21 yr old who has been hospitalised 3 times

and i met so so many people your age and older in there

suffering

and they are all embarassed over it

you said so yerself, yer parents are the ones who make u not like/trust doctors

why? what’s THEIR deal. what is wrong with them?

people avoid doctors, specifically parents, because they do not ever want to be blamed for what may be wrong with their kids, when really it isnt blame, it opens you up and helps you understand yourself and your flaws and why you keep fucking up or why fucking up keeps happening to you

there are ten million other things i could/should/would say

but this is this for now

write me back whenever however

i am always here

rl