noel’s wishlist

nate says:

im listening to stars now

nate says:

do you have a problem with them?

raymi says:

boring

raymi says:

i got so wasted at their concert i had to sleep in fils car

raymi says:

on account of being extremely fucking bored

nate says:

oh come on!

nate says:

they’re not that bad

raymi says:

yeah and theyre like so totally different from every other band on the arts and crafts label!

nate says:

ok then… all time best band?

nate says:

what it is?

raymi says:

air supply

nate says:

for real?

raymi says:

no

raymi says:

right now i’m listening to jeff buckley

nate says:

???

raymi says:

now im listening to interpol

raymi says:

u dont know who jeff buckley is?

raymi says:

google it wow

raymi says:

fil will explode when he learns this

nate says:

i dont think i do

raymi says:

yer really young so thats ok

nate says:

well when your mad at him, then tell him

nate says:

im not that young!

raymi says:

yer 18?

nate says:

19

raymi says:

dude when i was 16 i thought i was super like authority old and smart so shut up

raymi says:

yer a baby

nate says:

it was my birthday last friday

raymi says:

happy birthday

nate says:

thanks… my brother got me a case of beer so this weekend should be nice

nate says:

your what? 22?

nate says:

only three years older than me… if im a baby your a toddler

raymi says:

dude im like three seconds away from being 23

raymi says:

what grand masterful life experience have you got behind you thats earned u a fraction of a right to brag, nothing

raymi says:

so hush

raymi says:

plus u dont know who jeff buckley is

raymi says:

also u are a boy and u mature slower so really you are like 13

nate says:

id say more like 12, i do look younger than i am

nate says:

and your more than right, i have no life experiences

raymi says:

exactly

nate says:

im mature enough to admit it… thats gotta count for something right?

raymi says:

um hmm, i guess so

raymi says:

are you in highschool?

nate says:

college

raymi says:

what are you taking?

nate says:

philosophy, psychology, sociology, calculus

nate says:

for now

raymi says:

wow what a waste of time

nate says:

yea tell me about it

nate says:

time and money

raymi says:

why dont u just become a garbageman or work in an old folks home and buy stocks in that

nate says:

well i finished highschool and had nothing else to do… so im going to college

raymi says:

dont take my advice tho

raymi says:

i have no intention of going to college

nate says:

dont worry, i wont

nate says:

its not that bad

raymi says:

im just some bitter drunk woman

raymi says:

well at least im cool

raymi says:

i have that going for me

nate says:

yea, and im uncool… so i have that

nate says:

im listening to jeff buckley now

nate says:

not bad

raymi says:

dude drowned to death

raymi says:

in a river

raymi says:

a steamboat went by and pulled him under

nate says:

your such an upper

nate says:

haha

raymi says:

how do u like that

nate says:

its really cool

raymi says:

dude im giving you rock 101

nate says:

how long ago did he die professor?

raymi says:

uh that is a question for the all-knowing google

raymi says:

also it’s you’re not your

raymi says:

you’re = you are

raymi says:

your = your

nate says:

yes i know… but im lazy

nate says:

that takes an extra two keys

nate says:

i could go ‘ur’

raymi says:

thats worse

nate says:

thats why i dont do it

raymi says:

ok

nate says:

its that’s not thats

nate says:

haha

raymi says:

fuck you

nate says:

its a two way street here

raymi says:

you have not earned the right of a two way street 19 year old

raymi says:

you’re not even a real person until you are 28

raymi says:

thats the rule for guys

raymi says:

i have guy friends who are 22 and i dont even respect them

nate says:

do you really respect those guys older than 28?

raymi says:

i respect the fact that they are real people

nate says:

so then what am i if not real

nate says:

so whats the age of being ‘real’ for girls?

raymi says:

you are a being taking up space

raymi says:

it depends for girls, each case is different

nate says:

how so?

raymi says:

i dont have the patience to talk about girls

raymi says:

thanks for spelling your url wrong idiot

nate says:

no problem

nate says:

http://fourtyblocks.blogspot.com/

raymi says:

yeh i got that

raymi says:

geniusface

porkn says:

have you missed talking to me?

raymi says:

no

raymi says:

did u go away or something

i dunno about this wearing red business i mean i like the concept but this shirt i have i was going to wear has wine stains on it, i will probably wear it anyway.

maybe i will show up wearing blue.

i am going to call and see if it will be at andy’s i hope i don’t sound like a pipsqueak.

“uh could i quite possibly have an internet web site party there please?”

i was just about to get a great video of this woman doing tai chi in the park but her tai chi super powers sensed what i was up to and she immediately stopped and took off. the best part was that she had a fuschia beret on and a leather jacket!

fil and i’s favorite new thing is to ask each other if we “are in an adventure” when really the other person is just sitting there reading a pamphlet or opening the fridge door, the more boring and plain the task, the better the adventure MUST BE! and then when the person says no you’re suppose to go aw like you are extremely sad that the person isn’t having an adventure.

i think my mental illness is rubbing off on fil.

cid bit me on the head yesterday, not the face, not the chin, on my fucking HEAD!

fil doesn’t want to hang out with me later when we GO ON AN ADVENTURE to get his haircut and me have my lip pierce done did so i think i will go play megatouch but then i panic and think OH NO SOMEONE WILL BE PLAYING IT WHEN I GET THERE so i’ll have to sit at the bar and act like i intended to sit at this bar to talk to acquaintances, like oh yes i came all the way from toronto to eat wings totally awesome!

maybe i’ll just take the train back, i dunno. something tells me in some shape or form that i will be able to manipulate fil into letting me hang out with him and i know he doesn’t want me to cos i will take all of the attention away from him and/or ignore him completely by playing megatouch and shoot him dirty looks here and there.

last nite we got in a fight over the not hanging out because i was wine/gin and tonic sensitive because he was laughing at the situation which i decided to interpret him as laughing at me and i had to go along with my pretend anger and man what a waste of a buzz that was.

being ridiculous is so draining.

fil is going to read this and be like i fucking hate you.

tomorrow i am having my lip piercing changed to a little silver ball.

i just walked to the liquor store ALL BY MYSELF and it was very very cold and i didn’t get carded because i wasn’t wearing mascara so i look haggard and tired which equals old. also i chatted up the cashier about wine. the fact that i went to a female cashier showed bravery. she mentioned some brand of wine i never heard of and i said yep yep i’ve tried it so maybe she made it up to test me and now she is talking smack about me to her co-workers like ha ha that girl said she’s tried the carburator merlot for 7.95. my hearing is bad so i kept having to lean in to hear what the fuck she was saying.

i am too pathetic for this world.

i also bent down to tie my shoe and it was very hard to get back up again because of my intense one hour work-out from last nite and so i’m in this semi-crouch position and pretending i’m looking at wine on the lowest shelf and this old guy wheels his cart into my aisle behind me and i turn slowly still crouching, look up at him and say uhhhh, i worked out last nite, and he just wheeled right on by me.

FUCK YOU ASSHOLE THIS IS THE FIRST VERBAL EXCHANGE I HAVE EXPERIENCED ALL DAY AND I MADE AN EFFORT AND YOU JUST WEEBLE WOBBLE PAST ME WITH YOUR BEARD AND YOUR BEIGE WINTER HOODED JACKET AND GLASSES RAAAAAAAAAAAWR!

ok new rule i have to eat something before going outdoors otherwise people will be set on fire with my mind and their heads will explode off their necks up into the air when i walk by them.

instead of getting completely wasted last nite i exercised! i wore an 80s type exercise outfit and i threw myself around the condo for an hour to stupid music and it was worth it cos i feel better and look better so that’s why i feel better. my spastic workout inspired fil to walk up and down the stairs of the building 4 times.

but then i had the most terrible sleep ever because i guess i can only fall asleep intoxicated so i laid there in bed from 11:30 to 3:30 thinking about orcs pulling my toes out of their sockets one at a time.