i stayed up reading til past two then i tried to molest fil in his sleep but gave up i have a headache it is chilly i’m going to return the movie and go eat in a dark corner by myself and draw pictures of people sherri said i have a wall around me and people don’t know how to get to know me or be around me and i said that’s just how i am built up coolness and stef said i am only popular on the internet and radmad said girls must not like being around me much that’s three insults in three days from three different girls even stefan/snake said i was abrasive like very abrasive.

i get abrasive on purpose to push people away i guess and some people take it way personally but even times i am not being abrasive just you know being me, saying nothing, people get offended by that too like they are expecting me to be yelling all the time and telling stories that don’t go anywhere. if you want to get “in” you don’t have to be invited you know just like, come in already.

anyway people feel the need to tell me their opinions about me all the time and even to my face whereas i have the tact to keep the shit i think about them to myself and i know where it comes from it’s something like jealousy mixed with hate and appreciation but mostly they hate me cos i exist cos whatever it is they may think i am about it’s annoying to know there is someone like me in the world who is “abrasive” who “gets it” when it’s always suppose to be them and not me. whatever.

HEY DOODS THANKS FOR THE UNWARRANTED PSYCHO-ANALYSIS NOW IT’S MY TURN TO DO YOU!!

porkn says:
hi

porkn says:
i have to go. have a good day