sometimes i just want to cut myself. not seriously do it. ok maybe but like just to see how it feels. i already pick at myself like crazy, my legs, the back of my shoulders, neck, face, anywhere i can reach. raymi has scars. raymi gives herself scars. when something goes bad or the second stress arises my hands go at my body and pick. everyone tells me it’s normal but seriously i don’t think that it is, well it is but not to the extent i’m doing it. you know? if things were cool i wouldn’t be picking and scarring myself.

i’m fucking embarassed dude. i just want my face to tan so i don’t have to wear make-up to cover that shit up and the huge circles under my eyes. fuck.

so back to cutting myself. i’m just looking at my arms and the scars and scrapes from raymi accidents and i think how awesome a big long deep boner of a scar down my left arm to the wrist would look.

laura at the slutfactory told me she liked being cut when her boyfriend fucked her from behind and she enjoyed watching her blood go down her arms all over the place.

decent.

a few scars here and there make sense.

and no mum i won’t actually do it so don’t go all mom’d out in my comments. please.