embrace the crazy

Sometimes I get hyper-reactive to the C-word and to the B-word. You can call me the other C-word and it’s okay but not this one. only i get to say I am crazy, you don’t get to.

I have decided to lean into the crazy. They say if crazy people don’t know they’re crazy, then they’re crazy and if people say they’re not crazy, they are definitely crazy but when people say they are crazy, it means that they aren’t. I find that those who are the most opposed to mental health are the ones who got the most issues that need addressing (yesterday). I also love when people say their problems out loud and also the solution for it. I interrupt and say, SO DO THAT or TELL THEM EXACTLY WHAT U JUST TOLD ME PROBLEM SOLVED but they don’t do it. People prefer the mess and the chip on their shoulders.

How is it that a humble egotistical fuck like myself can be happily collecting diagnosis’ then? I be out here catching traits, ticks, ’tisms, habits, routines all kinds of things with a big butterfly net but nahhhhhhhh YOU ALL somehow get missed with that bullshit like how the ones who trigger me say I am reacting yet it’s TO THEM AND WHAT THEY ARE CONSTANTLY FUCKING DOING chicken and the egg me once more and get a little FAFO sprinkling too bitch. Promise.

Can you tell I got my period? Lol.

Told a gf I was going to lean into sexy Minx then immediately text her a bevy of not sexy takes, rants, incidents, foul comment screenshots, just toxic drama galore. I think I meant to say, I will start TOMORROW lol. Which would be today.

This is blowing up on instagram. Only in this instance do I wish I was a man to be taken seriously and believed. I am just not a liar at all so this busts my chops hard, if you know me irl u know I have zero patience and tolerance for people who make me repeat myself.

I will say the thing ONCE and I say it kindly like a mouse, and then I get underestimated on whatever i said and not taken seriously. I am so lethally high-strung AUDHD that even saying the thing once pains me and I am irritated that I needed to speak AT ALL.

…and so, to take me to task and question me on anything resulting in me repeating the matter with even more details, effort, gusto, and thought, knowing you are still not on board, I AM LIVID at this point.

I just don’t lie and manosphere fucks en masse raining down on me shit like “sure bud” and “didn’t happen” over and over again made me a little more mad lol @ “a little more” and yeah, if you know me and love me then you will fight with me. Apparently a lot of women are making these videos right now so lets blame them for the rampant conspiracies flooding the feeds and not the cause of those videos.

IF THESE THINGS DIDN’T HAPPEN THEN THESE VIDEOS WOULDN’T EXIST. Has ChatGPT taken people’s ability to recognize reality any fucking more or are they that reactive to the story about guys leering at me and saying it out loud, did they get affected and revolted too? So they’re quick to protect their fellow (fictional by their records) men out from the boogey women claiming all these VERY FUCKING TOTALLY HAPPENED TO US THINGS.

No wait, they all gotta be lying that’s it they co-ordinated these mass-lies because women have a secret red bat phone all connected to one another ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY TO THINK THAT WE ACTUALLY SPRANG INTO ACTION TO MAKE S/A VIDEOS ABOUT OUR TRAUMAS AND ABUSERS???

These men think they’re the dominant gender (they aren’t) and that the piggish shit that they all know they all do, isn’t really happening and the gross incel manosphere crap u all engage in that we see and u make sure of it…. IS THINGS THAT DIDN’T HAPPEN FOR 1000 Alex… so what is it? these things we see u do and brag about on the dark web too like really bad things, do not happen??? you are frying my logical brain. Such a waste of my time. Smart men know women are the smarter gender. Dumb men claim to be smart. Smart men say nothing.

and I just posted this on FB

Most viral vid of me on insta thus far outside of the 200 days sobriety selfie from 100 days ago I posted controversy kids… If you have thick skin, getting people mad at you is the way. I’ve had viral moments over the past 26 years and those moments bring draggings so hard you might lose ten pounds in a week. Some platforms are more vicious than others. And certain takes you have bring with those stans coming for you. Example: TwiHards – the Twilight Fandom taught yours truly a lesson when I posted Keira Morgan’s picture of #RobertPattinson on my raymitheminx.com blog in the early 2000s in Vancouver at a JUNO party he came to of ours… Gibson’s, as I was one of the groupie #influencer motley crew I was there too. lots of Canuck celebs were and they were filming Twilight on Tofino island at the time.

SO, Keira sells the pic to pop sugar (a lesser-tier Perez hilton site) and she gets a grand from it. He refused to take pics with us so she stealthily got a pic from across the room I was too scared to do it anyway, all I did was share the details on my blog and omit the part where he reeked like hot garbage cigarettes sweat like they obviously filmed all day and then he headed out in a toque to be more sweaty. you know that hot stank, he is also fucking hot as hell too so it didn’t matter but i was face to face with him SUPER CLOSE had to lean into his ear the music was blaring.. I have pics of this entire trip and evening. So ya, Twihards DID NOT RESPOND FAVOURABLY AT ALL TO THIS BLOG POST. I didn’t even think or know about them.

They went thru my blog and tore me to shreds so when I say to modern day trolls that they can’t hurt me (it still hurts) I try to make it known I have been thru the ringer before, the factory it was manufactured in plus the guy’s torture chamber prototype who invented it.
I don’t make videos about fictional things unless it’s about one of my inchy the caterpillar filler stories because I am baked and think I am hilarious or something. If I was a liar my blog would be, guess what, FILLED WITH LIES.

Mike “The Situation”Sorrentino cannot tell a lie either he is a big blabbermouth and I am too I just cant and don’t lie because I think every true detail is so interesting because I am delulu and happy I don’t even care if others think what I am saying matters I am talking til I get laughs.

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ngl im 43 and that’s me no filter and i can show it without my shades on too. i got moonbeam eyebags but they’re smooth and look ok, if that makes sense? sobriety really is age-defying…

enough monkeying around time to upload a video i took yesterday!