I’m leveling up and I cant leave you behind
Would you prefer to be who you are going to be or who you use to be?
Like, did you have a glow-down and now you reflect on pictures of your former youthful, vibrant self, and wish for that again or do you lock in (gotta stop saying that) double down and glow the fuck up?
My body isn’t perfect yet but it’s not bad. Nitpicking over it is stupid when the majority do not care, it’s the insipid internet trollish losers who attack confident women online. Yesterday one guy from Regina and also from a sober group I am in on facebook thusly should know better bcos ex-drinkers are suppose to be all kumbaya with each other but anyway he put a laugh emoji under the pic I posted yesterday so I ofc wanted to know why. I messaged him and asked why he put a laugh emoji and he said Why spred out like that …looks fucked up and obviously I snapped and at that same time he left a comment on my post saying I was a barrel with chicken legs on it LOL — I went nuclear. AND as it so happens also at the same time facebook decided there was sus activity on my account and had to make sure I was me tf so I couldn’t reply to any messages which are always blowing up. I reported him and said go fuckin relapse u trashbag.
He had effectively highlighted and diagnosed a major body insecurity of mine and was it the most flattering picture to showcase of what I consider (for me at least) to be progress? maybe not but fuck man, he got me good. Then my mind went down a rabbit hole of self consciousness meanwhile I’m receiving likes and supportive comments pumping my ego and yet this motherfucker has the gall to try to make me feel small. So I go and look at his profile, he’s not ugly but he’s sure as hell a bored Saskatchewan hick who does renos of some sort using only one selfie picture that’s black and white. super sus. can tell makes a habit of trolling women on Facebook as a hobby.
this is the caption:
Motivated more than ever. I am setting a goal of losing 10lbs. Locking in. 213 days no alcohol.
this reveals a weakness and an achievement at the same time. trolls do not like when you are winning and they take every opportunity they can to attack insecurities. I could post an even more toned picture with the same caption and he would have said something to take me down.
In the past I posted topless pictures here often and looking back some very unflattering unfit pictures that I would never post today.
Haters are my motivators in the words of canceled Ellen Degenerate who no doubt stole it from someone else. We’re not suppose to feed the trolls but I gotta a little bit. I am addicted to fighting in only to right wrongs but ultimately it is a massive waste of time but sometimes you can change the mind of a cretin pos woman-hating incel but mostly no you can’t. I hope anyone afflicted with manosphere brainwashed sons does the right thing asap.
I love this place. I’ll go back to doing blog posts like these with pictures of my adventures not just selfies combined with my long diatribes of all my insistent opinions.
kk gotta decide what trouble to get in today it’s so hot. lemme know if u wanna bully some targeted harassment to this troll’s way I will oblige it.
Also I do some light-sponsoring now and had a call with a friend in some need of Raymi advice yesterday, I’ll leave with you now. I told him:
MEPS Mentally Emotionally Physically Spiritually ask yourself that thru out the day
Daily check in to track progress and feelings
in recovery shit we did at rehab
some girls wouldnt shut the fuck up lol
keep up the no drinking to day 3
youre worth it
I’m leveling up and I cant leave you behind (and now ive landed on my blog post title)
you know you can do it when you feel the heat apply the pressure back
dont be consumed and powerless in your stress
PUNCH IT IN THE FUCKING FACE SOBER
Make doctor appt for shrink referral to get a script – anyone i know in therapy that pays for it is still sick and not getting better do not pay for therapy you can get covered for free under ohip u need some tough love from a practitioner who wont tell you what you want to hear to keep you coming back
get diagnosed
also to vent about your situation
your mom your marriage and your unhappiness and drinking
Youre not fixed yet
He made it thru yesterday without drinking and now will make it thru today too and I am proud of that for him it takes someone to set you straight sometimes to yank you out of your addictive cycle it can be very scary and hard to stop when you are in it. My heart goes out to all the addicts suffering out there.
❤️❤️❤️I’m a big supporter babe.. you know it! You’re lookin great and getting better.. my mind might explode
that picture of the ferns is the most green possible
Stay sexy
Hey, you’re showing how it’s done, a public service.
Damn guys are fucking weird! What exactly is the point? The whole thinking is wrong! That negative reinforcement will some how make you fawn over him? Yeah you’re a little bit stronger than that.
Part of me wants you to go show up at his door, say lay it down clown, and then watch him crumble. Confronted by a real and strong woman, he’d totally be a little child.
pretty sure im taller than him and irl he wouldnt even be able to look me in the eye and also would rubberneck me guys like him are fuckin fish in a barrel with my chicken legs attached
Slightly tangential, but I had a light-bulb moment when a friend of mine with ADHD told me that ever since she started her meds she stopped rage-baiting people because it didn’t give her that dopamine rush anymore. It makes me wonder if half the reason the internet comments sections went to shit is because of people with untreated adhd discovered the internet and started getting their fix from pissing people off instead of crack or booze. I haven’t looked into if there’s any research evidence to back it up or if it’s just an anecdotal thing, so who knows but it’s a strong hunch.
I had to stop engaging with stupid internet comments because it was hurting my mental health. I would try to give people sincere thoughtful replies, even to the dumb ones, and just get rage-bait attempts in return. And I’m really not that hard to rage-bait unfortunately. I blame my french mom lol
Nothing you or anyone else is gonna say is gonna change those peoples minds. They’re just hoping someone gets mad so they can fap to it. I totally get that even if you know all that, that there’s some things that get their hooks in and it sucks.
Pretty sure there’s a lot of people who’d feed you tacos and touch your butt and simp like it was going out of style. And yeah, I bet IRL he has exactly zero confrontation skills and would piss himself and start whimpering if you got in his face. Gen X women WILL stab you lol
im millennial with gen x proclivities my guy and you are so totally onto something i agree with all of this.
yeah your new post the comments link is definitely not working lol
But just think how good this will be for your social media detox