in the end all you can hope for is the love you felt to equal the pain you’ve gone through

i finally put that $50 De Serres gift card to use, and for fifty dollars and 2 cents i got three new acrylic paints and 7 big canvases, thank you anita HUG hug hugsicles!

i went for an audition yesterday, it went well i think, i had a nip of white wine before we left to calm my anxiety, and then when i got there they offered me more, and there was an open box of pizza (didn’t touch that) and all the dudes were crackin’ brews, they were all hung, i was pretty ON and thought oh man i am so hilarious right now these guys love me but as more time passes and i remember every single little thing i said i am cringing away like, i want to get inside my head and SQUEEZE my brain dry that kind of cringe. i’m sure they won’t even remember the things i said that WEREN’T CAPTURED FOREVER ON CAMERA oh fuck. maybe the fact they were hung will be on my side. i wore my red pants because the other outfit i wanted to wear was too office girl square according to fil plus he hates that high waisted skirt. i figured red pants would give me an edge. ok i have to stop obsessing over this i am driving myself crazy.

anyway then we went to the beac for late lunch early dinner however you look at it.

fil used his henry’s gift certificate and got a new compact flash card, thrilling i know.

how nice of these glasses to bring out the huge what is my nose.

i am so feeling white wine this summer fyi except for when i wake up the next day like where i’m at right now.

fil’s macaroni corn flakes wtf. last time they at least crumbled them up and crisped them.

my carpaccio, the thickest i have ever had, not that it was wicked thick, just compared to other kinds.

it gushed rain just as we were finishing up our food.

the 16×20 are packs of two for 6.99 totally great deal.

big one i cannot wait to decrease the value of by putting my garbage all over.

katemossmannequinmodelingdebsoutfits updated!