here’s some journal excerpts from around 2004 and half of it sorry i can’t decipher some lines i probably got from movies or books or bits of conversation.

eating kimchi noodle soup i wish noodles were easier to eat so i could shove them all in my mouth at the same time having a quiet moment with a cigarette and a beer and i’m stoned and going to meet mum somewhere soon after i blowdry and straighten my hair and my legs are sticking out of this jean? trashy shirt i want to be a model.

my finger is bleeding lets get drunk i feel like i have resin on my face

everything is different when you’re on blow sometimes things are better while sometimes they are worse the worst moments really are the worst and quite awful you know though it’s a good soundtrack for your life.

i was fucked i didn’t talk for the whole year. that fucks you up a bit i moved 21 times.

journaling is so gay these days. so emo. what is this music theme day?

i should buy rollerblades

i really like kylie minogue

i will buy rollerblades

i quit weed and carbohydrates at the same time for 36 hours dumb fuckin’ idea.

these cramps are so bad it feels like i am morphing inside out and into the bed or maybe i’m stoned this pain is unreal.

raining with the spinkler on.

you live in the past.

today i am wearing sunglasses went to casino niagara last nite lost money.

insomnia all over the place.

this is pretty shitty.

i remember an earwig fell into my mouth outside this window by the gate door i was 4 years old or something.

one day that frig of a cat will say something to me.