sometimes the same is different but mostly it’s the same

should i dye my hair all black again?

bluh!

fucking buzznet puts ads over their videos now, and i finally got youtube to upload a video, and then it was removed? it was just a vid of me jammin’ shittily to gh3’s paint it black what the fucking fuck. so i’m wicked pissed, i deleted the original, i guess i’ll try the one of paranoid next see how long that lasts.

anyway, black hair or keep it as is, thoughts?

i drank a vanilla ensure for lunch/starvation/hour of power and almost barfed it all up fuck that stuff is gross, and all i could think of was max the dog (in his last days fil’s mum gave max ensure and other fatty things cos he was losing a lot of weight) and my grandma, sitting on my grandma’s bed in her retirement room, having an ensure each, and how i associate ensure with death now. once you get to the bottom of the bottle there are gobs of gooey gross and after every sip you get a metallic taste in your mouth ungh if i concentrated hard enough on it right now i bet i could make myself barf.

then i had half a tylenol three cos my kidney is hurtin’

then i had a bath and painted my nails while listening to the same three songs i always listen to and wondered if the neighbours would give me shit or something cos they can no doubt hear everything that goes on in our ‘loo and i was hoping they would so i could say yeah well i’ve heard your fucking acoustic guitar music through the bedroom wall since we moved in, and it’s crap!

then i tried to sink to the bottom of the tub and felt really sleepy from the t3 then i plotted out infinity outfits to bring to new orleans and obsessed over how i was going to fit it all in my tiny suitcase and had many mini panic attacks (worst traveler ever) then i got out and now here i am hi.

yeah t3 always makes you kinda queasy, t3 + barf milkshake = spewiest idea yet.

oh and i chickened out of slamming on the wall when that old guy yelled at his wife again just now.