aye think aye need tae take aye shit.

due things as you know how to do them best. from how you taught yourself in the beginning and from what someone helped you with all along. thank you ward and dave o’sulliedvindiesL.

my hits have been down for way too long well i dunno this much so far. i havent been writing or reading or internetting ive been living and running my bipolarity brains into overdrive and my heart rate too so fucking way much you know i dont want to die i dont want a heart attack i dont want a fucknig kerouac pre 47 years of age death by way of heart explosions and the like. stream of consiousness. where do you think that comes from other than from kerouac? other than my third cousin and stuff? and then my mom’s second fucking cousin an dthen my papa’s first fucking cousin? yep. and then the logical part of raymitheminx and shit? the white ango saxon protestant part of me however, raised catholic, the fucking right way? mebbe perhaps. in canada was right. by over-tired teachers is right. passionate teachers is right, better informed? who knows. opinions are just opinions you know? no reason to fucking fight all the time. all the time. im letting the past delete itself slowy but surely. i feel jinxed because i wanted the whole world to look at me. the whole world. do you want that too? i think sometimes you might. or one time you did. you need to be looked at or you need to look at yourself, in order to learn, to live and to love and then to forgive and realise that yeh, people, are just people and that they do not know that of which whatever…i take everything personally, i did, or i do and it made me crazy. i let it, i scripted it. i wanted a crazy room i wanted a crazy life i wanted doctors and stuff but i wanted to write a book and i started it all, plot characters love fucking underage shit bla bla all that stuff that gets junky fuckers hooked on reading, lesbian nurse and crazy patient scenario and then the evil head male doctor that raymi had to mindfuck or kill or something, outthink that guy to get out of there. my fucking cousin, also third relation to kerouac fucking inspired me to script this little minx trap, conjure that image, and im trying to tell him now all about it. he read me this depressed poetry shit and then it all began and i wrote the first page and a bit and even typed it, left it on the table thing in our livingroom for my mom an dad to see, i was pretty damn proud. i think i was 14, now i think i may have been 13, possibly 12. everyone was always older than me. i called it “Outcast Society” immediately. so that’s mine. raymi was lauren’s name. lauren is me. i was the narrator. i did not understand so much about narration and third person speaking and the like…tra la..but i knew i was the best at writing and mathamatiques and sciences and all that shit. i learned bilingual shit of le francaise kind. i can type it better you know and now i remember it again. i know spanish better now too and mehicano and deafness and blindess and illness and pains and on and on and on…sdkgds;kgf;eht you know these things too. you have inner dialogues.

here in my heart…hear in my head….no no no nono…no i dont know….nonoonononooo….download pulp’s, seductive barry right now.

roll the soundtrack and dim the lites cuz im not going home tonite.

change the song if what you are writing about is boring. if it’s boring to you, however.

you can start emailing me again. all of you. hotmail gave up on my past desired emails directed to suitesoleil, that old thing. ahh hell.

go to raymiraymi@yahoo.ca or parkdaleraymi@hotmail

fucking spam mail follows me everywhere anyhow, where am i now

im afraid of a lot of things. too too many. im suppose to be safe everywhere. youre suppose to be safe everywhere. anywhere.

in planes on trains in the planes in maine insane sane of sound mind and thought and intellect and beauty and inner strength.

will yourselves better. be your own fuckhead only. make mistakes and apologize immediately.

say, “i’m sorry” when you fuck up. dont say fuck unless you have to. be aware of children and animals and dogcrap and rain and lightning bolts and dangers and sars and pedophiles on the loose. dont be a target. dont let paranoia hurt you. burn you. dont do things that get in you. dont let people think you did the bad things and if you did them and they do find out, dont be shamed. dont be shamed. shame on you once. shame on you twice if you do it again. nihilism and all that zen crepe, all of it is relevent, all of it. the niggers of spain. the spics and jews and french and brits and irish and the niggers of italy and the niggers of niggers of whites and lesbians and fags and on and on

im fine now. im finer now. like a fine wine, with age, gets better.

there’s a better haiku for you.

less words, lesser words. lesser sentences. slow down the rhythym and pace. type to music tune out everything for awhile. but sometimes you need to type the way you know best.

dont let my paranoia kill you.

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april whatever the fuck

im leaving on a fucking jet plane to go to the effin� never eat shredded wheat coast. And I love all the assholes , everyone I forced myself to be friends with for my own basic need and desire or whatever the fuck I chose to help people and they chose to fuck with me, my life, my love, in every sense of the fucking word. This. This is the beginning of my fucking piece of a shit book, life, whatever

fuck you all literally in every sense of the word.

But, goddammit.

I love you in the end.

Antiwins. Dot com.

Anyhow I have not had time to fucking tell you all goodbyes or hellos how are yous and this is sort of a sarry letter. Fuck sars. I have all photos and evidence of all everything and everyone who tried to stop me but didn�t. and im coming back anyway. And ill tell comeback home dates to all who I want to be there to do the helloes and goodbyes.

Im going to meet tony pierce

And all the other l-ame-oes

L AYMES

Whatever.

People who live in la are L-ayme

Im L-ayme.

When this plane lands for crying out loud we are going straight to that beach.

That�s the birthday present I shoulds got to myself

It would have

Prevented all this mess

But I am doing it right this time.

If I smell a fuckins snake a mile away

I am not going to mentally cockblock

That shit

Oh no

Way

I swear

This is the fuck you goodbye hello I forgive you

No guilt open letter that I am writing from flight 1553

To LAX

With

Anti

Beside

Me

Anty

Whatever

Fuck the gay faglove homo shit

Heereh

This is going to be hoo ha ha

In the end.

Love you too laura petrie.

Anyway

Debbies here giving me my fucking alcoholic bev�s

Finally

That girl is more than a flight attendent.

Props Debbie it is 7 43 canada time,

What time is it where you are?

I want to know if you can remember.

Oh it�s 444 in lax?

Perfect.

Oh yes alicjia is giving us some rold golds now

Niiiice

We want 4 buds

But mebbe we wont be able to drink em all /

Im not going to lie to you guys anymore

Well I never really did

Ever

And u knew that

All those crazy assumptions

Mebbe 24 percent of them

Are true.

I knew anti before all of you

He snuck in threw the bathroom window

No one expected this

Even raymi

The minx

Looks like itll be two Heinekens in the keg format

And some free pretzels.

Niice.

Ahh I just heard her crack ythe shit over my left shoulder

Around the corner from seats 20d and 20 e and I guess seat # 20f

Im gonna write about the super duper mega awesome biatch in seat 20 f

Anne-juh-luhh

As my homie from whos the fucking boss would say.

Anti already got her effin pic

Nice anti

Antiwins that one

I already got my bitch debbie�s winly permission to get that antismoking decal

Off the door

In the cameraless bathroom

Hahahahhahahahaha

Anyhow

No time to laugh

I have winamp and this word doc to fly like no tomorrow til the battery dies.

I should save now.!~

Doje

Nr

Donme

Done

I like making mistakes

Mistakes are funny

Yah

So I love you all

Lets look on my laptop for fun now

Or ill edit some already unseen fotos

After im done listing to snakpimps avec radiohead

I heard those guys might be a little good at their jams

So good they don�t gotta effin market it

Or advert

Good

For

Fuckingthem

Everything you read in here

Is

True

All of it

Save for whatever

U knoiw

Anti is force feeding pretze;ls

Fag

That�s my victory

And his

Whatever

We all win

Evil never does

And I got 20 years of proof

Bet me

Assholes

Now

Iuts time for fucking gerri halliwell

Love her for leaving those spice bitches

They couldn�t be happy for their own bitch\\

Ive been one dollar dissing everyone

Not anymore

I gotthe money

Some of it

To pass around

I don�t even have time for evil

Aka tell offs

Not til a week

I only havetime for lovey I love you emails

Or whatever

Don�t call me unless u have nice news

Or tell me shit about your shit

Three sistser since literally the beginning of time

Have been raped

One barely 12

She was held down

By three �boys�

And her councellor

Said

It

Was

Her

Fault

That councellor bitch

Im getting all the proboner legal advice

For free

Don�t worry

Here�s is a lesson

Take on bets when u know u will win

There u go

Don�t worry oh slumlord

Contract can be null and void

Even verbal ones

Right blond anna? Miss I know famous people.

That�s youre own problem

You should be famous

U signed the I don�t and cat be famous or say im secretly sexing a famous

PERSON contract.

Not me.

You are insecure and who�s fault was that

U forced me to say mean things

And then there is the blond girl

The first hot insecure one

Who I threw the fuck out for trying to bone

My 4 year man

Go back to scarbourough

Scarberia.

But whatever

Scarboro-ho.

Anti made that one up

Oh u kissed him first?

Yah in secret at yer job

For months

Whatever

Nothing is ever your fault?

Lonely?

I don�t care. I don�t have time to even call u fromthis plane

Or anyone

Emails go both ways

And fones too.

Bye for now. Xoxoox

Love you too jg

Family

And business

For

Life

Promises

Will

Not

Be

Broken

Unless

There

Is a

Reason.

Oh hi dugan

Im listin to pete yorn

Gentlemen, meet Lauren white.

Ahem.

Bye.

For real this time? Noi. No. im minimizing for adobe.

No im closing for adobe and this flight

And ill write more later and anti too.

Who wins?

8 0 2 pm beer and food and me time now.

Fuck u unanig is ungagi in sf or fucking b winning at listenb something hfsd;l hfdnet yetsz;flkjdsf�ds ?

There is no connection to the main brain of dumthnglkdfg; d

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please dont be mad at me anymore for not typing and stuff. anyone ive nicely called and left nice messages for please call me back. i have some of your shit. you have some of mine. we’ll have a swap-meet, otehrwise im just showing up one day, unannounced and like, asking you why you were such fucking fuckheads to me and yah, whatever we had/have beef, i havent publicly named names or talked S about you so this blog is about venting rage all over again, self-loathing, talking about why toronto fucking sucks bigtime just like any other eastern coast city, burb, small town, fucking whatever. repent your sins, dont make shit up to try and get someone to be your boy/girlfriend again and just like, you know, be nice to each other. oh yah, and me too.

dont let blogs take over your life. pretend ive had mine since 19 fucking ninety nine. oh wait, i have.

ill be on that sex tv thing nearer to june they say.

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JG is the best NME i know right now. he lives in fucking kansas, like war town. ble ble sdhfbsdflgj!!!!!!!!!1 and he sez all that war shit before me and after me and whaetevr. hi jg

photos say a lot on saturday. especially when fags dont have adobe on their pc emachines whatever that means and so paint primitively makes my photos way cooler. thanks version 1.0 of every fucking thing.

this is my last layme day nite whatever nad its 5. perfect right on time. now it just gets colder and dark and i cant find any shoes so im going to crap in my pants and walk bare foot shit house drunk styles perhaps……to the whatever mobile and be like

anti stop following me.

i miss jamie and coolhandluke and other gay people

jamaicanneighbors.blogspot.crsegfsd yofkgsdvlcj say hi to the mad scientist. and then that guy was dressed like lego adn then that otehr guy who lives in my area code who wants me to be moer adult by more porn… this is the homo squad oh yeh julia too, that one who is from iceland or something and likes to roll around in hay fields with guys and then she is picture paranoid and i can look exactly like her elf face sometimes. antyway,. youre all jerks . shout out also to ryan h of the asshole persuasion…..howtoliveyerlifemyway.blorksput….and then that blonty guy again

hi esthero

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blogging is so COOL!

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1/7/03 – 6:01:46 pm toronto time.

ok lets think of all the nice things i did today. i chipped in money for uhh, dinner and groceries and change for weed and some mushrooms and i gave a bit of my tuna sammich away and i helped push the car out of the snowbank and tried to drive it back and forth out of it too and i didn’t yell at the cat too much when it jumped onto my naked back and planted its claws into my flesh oh-help-me-lord and i only snapped at the guy at tim horton’s once when he was going to charge me 50 cents for mayo on my tuna sammich and made me feel obese.

http://www.truckermagazine.com i hope ill one day stop harassing people in toronto and then maybe one day realise i wasnt ever being mean. just honest and angry and pissed off that i walked into this coolness trap and know why raymitheminx.com sucks, and why i might want to have some whatever trucker wants to be anti-vice. homo mag and never wanted the alias of raymi or the minx just some photo of me being a jerk at that art system drinknig beers go go dancing thing and then no one wanted to say hi to me whatevs. it was kinda ok kinda too neurotic but the dangerous part was the coolest , in retrospect. i guess but i never saw a copy or got that issue… etc etc

hi everyone. finklestein/stien ? i can neevr remember. spaniard. alex/sarah….chris////someone else, that ryan bigge guy, that jim munroe nme stuff from cali and why it’s scarey as shit here. um yeh. and ebm too. even the mean ones, especially the accidental mean ones and then the coolest dance contests and that guy who looks like nick who is funny and mods suck still.

hhahahha i never even owned a record. im harassing myself so no one needs to look at me or shit talk kuz u know, ill cuss you out or suck cock or just be like just stop talking about me i hate you and i know you like to gossip so yah say hi whenever and stop making me feel ashamed for feeling guilty for being cool and lame and insecure all things everyone, everyone suffers from.

…….. and go somewhere else until a fucking police arrests me……anyway, ill be back soon for more anti usa gossip foto binges. u are allowed to go tothe keg party im missing u prolly know where but mebbe not. call me or ill cal u or email. yep. i know you have fuck house net connex. i guess anna says hi from berlin or something. shes hot. no, saucy…

please all refer too kool-aid.com with me now it just saved antis ribcage and stuff….. sorta..well i strongly disagree with their methods of ratios for canadians forced to go to 7/11 about 3a fucking m or something…….anyway, koolaid i want that blue favoured kind i almost choked and died on kuz of that saving silverman movie from two scenes of funny shit imultaneously and stuff and like yah, i want that blue whi packets of it. party packets. fuck being like britney spears and having busloads. it should be everywhere princess papers pimps and crackheads go.

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is there a foto of you online ?

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whats the deal???

yah kuz…

use it for yeh public raymi save us domain stiorage 3 seater 3 boy code muky junky have til sunday dave one go to raymitheminx.com please

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