yours in christ
my period came so i’m likeable again. melodie just got hers too. lucas you are FUCKED now.
i heard recently that one girl said to a guy who has come onto my radar to, “watch out” about me and that “i might put him on my blog” and that this girl “knows me” oh no no no no no silly silly girl. you do not know me. this happens so frequently. you READ my blog, you don’t know shit and way to build it up for this brother. is it scarier to be included on my blog or left in the dust? a footnote. irrelevant. so they anticipate and fear it and then it doesn’t happen. no blog kiss. sayonara.
another new recent one is no i do not read your blog spanning to could live without it and so on. perfect. one i do not care and two, people start fighting when the battle’s already over. you lost son. people makin’ slags on their way out, so uncouth. sometimes things just don’t work out. feeling the need to insult me pointlessly fine, you wanna go there? cos i got me some mad opinions on your ish too but i am a lady, i have manners. i don’t play like that. no, homie definitely does not.
i inhaled 2 dollars worth of 7-11 candy and two cream cheese jalapeno taquitos. i introduced the band at the silver dollar and casie (HAPPY BIIIRTHDAY!!) and i danced the floor and tore it all up. quite a spectacle. very punk rockabilly. wish more people could cut loose. glad i was hung cos i drank very little and capped the eve off with a tall glass of water at the beav and called her a night.
i am SO happy to be de-bloated now and what’s awesome is i do cardio sit-ups, torso twists and a ton of tricep extensions for three day’s straight out of desperation so by the time the bloat goes away which is now a nice chiseled torso is revealed replete with some deeper tan lines from the other day’s afternoon vitamin D delight. i think they call that shit tings be lookin’ up now whattagwan me friends.
November 2 2009
Hey Raymi,
I don’t want to comment this, because its not meant to be a comment discussion – but I thought you should know that your writing of the shit you are going through as totally made me feel better/relief/normal (or less alone) about my own mess.
I am deep into a very similar situation myself – our relationship has spanned 9 yrs, we are not engaged, we have broken up before, and we own a house and many different kinds of debt. We actually have started to see a the rapist together, and within the first 10 minutes of our first meeting together, she flatly said ‘you two have outgrown each other’. I knew it all along but every time I think about hurting him and leaving him I feel sick and absolutely insane.
There is no point (in my mind) to continue seeing the rapist because I don’t think we have a future – but I continue to make appointments for myself thinking that she will be able to figure me out.
I go to sleep every night wishing that he would turn into some kind of horrible human being so that my family and friends would see my decision as ‘justified’ rather than just another mistake in an already shitty decade. How can I leave someone that hasn’t done anything wrong over the course of our relationship? – except for being entirely emotionally unavailable and cold, freezing cold.
I have not left him – i have nowhere to go, but I secretly pack a suitcase every weekend. Pathetic right?
Oh, I dont know if you are in Oakville or Burlington, or neither, but I am in Burlington – yay suburbs…
Also – this is not meant to come across as “hey, your shit should seem less shitty now because it is helping people with their own shit” Thats not it at all – Just thought you should know that I may or may not feel the same as you may or may not have felt and also you are mighty awesome.
Thanks for reading!
liz
“except for being entirely emotionally unavailable and cold, freezing cold.”
that IS huge
thats the invisible abuse, whether intentional or not, it is NOT a way to exist
we are humans built for loving and touching, why not remove an arm too?
you dont have a kid so you can leave
just do it
you need to
yes im in burlington
one hour ago, today’s date:
Thank you for this. 6 months ago you gave me some solid advice and validated what I was feeling. I got out of a relationship I had been trying to leave for 5 years and because of this I am a stronger, happier person that absolutely loves life. I have a lot of support from my friends and family, but I also need to thank you for doing what you do because it has impacted my life in such a positive way. So….. THANKS! You are completely awesome, keep doing what you are doing!
liz
now it’s time for a cuddle hangover date byeeeeeee.
Being on Raymi’s blog is desirable because, as the weeks wear by at work, always the same, you might doubt that you are truly alive unless you read you did something worthwhile in the responsible newspapers, or at least on irresponsible Raymi’s blog…I’ll take that!
Love your new hair cut!
Don’t stop believin’, hold on to that feelin…
Your new hair cut rocks and you wear yellow well. Most can’t.
Re Warning Girl: She knows you she does know you she does she does! Oooo I would be in such fear and trembling about featuring on the mighty blog, haha!
As for the message from that chick, I skimmed down & got totally spun out by that “the rapist” remark and I’m thinking WHAAT??!? Raymi got raped??! Then I realize it’s just a typo. What shit are you going through? Don’t tell me you and Fil are over..? I haven’t been by in ages so whatever’s gone on I would not know. I hope you are all right though. All the best ;-)…
You hair is SO sexy.
Gledwood u are soooo out of touch and behind oh my god hahaha
love your new hair. funny because i thought i liked brown hair on you better. maybe it’s the yellow shirt you’re wearing. you look great.
I have yet to call into work.
hair so shiny!!!!!!!!!!
Raymi, the new hair looks amazing! Fresh, coquettish, but still very you.