hey just a hey wassup
Do I appear like someone who enjoys being perpetually fucked with or something? Is there a target on my head?
What would you do if your dreams finally came true but it takes awhile for others to catch up to you about that so they feel inclined to just fuck with you?
Do you lay down and take it? What are you nuts?!
I’ll tell you what tho, i am damn tired of distractions. like I love the notifications popularity but it’s annoying to re-tell ppl that I need space and time and focus and to stop messaging me like tone it down i am constantly trying to sugar coat it and i can’t anymore i am so wound-up annoyed from IRL pointless crap that eats my focus and then the notifications hell that I have created for myself. My short window of alone time with no distractions is so small that I feel panic when i type and create that soon it’ll ne taken from me and I won’t finish I just want to walk on an endless treadmill in my mind and there’s no obstacles or people who fucking need me right now. There I feel better that I got that out.
I don’t even see myself as a sexual object when I am so annoyed and trying to focus on churning out content like it’s hard to take the compliments. I don’t know what the solution is.. i am definitely complaining about champagne problems but it’s okay in this arena because I am intentionally putting myself first and being selfish and I will snap if I am crossed and I am on two different meds for moods so it’s not the fucking moods or me it’s mt environment and the people who overstep boundaries. Since adding a sister drug to my anti-depressant that’s suppose to make me more zen, it’s actually making me angrier and fine about it like a bullet train of rage I see myself flipping out and I can’t control it i don’t even want to it’s like AH HA! thanks asshole you just reminded me you’re on my shit list from that thing you did and now u did again just now. I am tired of being two people and my anger interwoven seemingly. The solution for now is to just address it and it’s exhausting plus ageing me and fucking with my blood pressure.
The uncensored pics are on my substack ofc thanks for listening on to the next task until the next distraction or interruption.
try this view too of my substack and get the app! It’s fun and escapist and friends are always there but u see how it is distracting and part of the problem I am railing about. https://substack.com/@raymitheminx
Also got a lot going on my youtube channel meow pls sub there too.
this is why I need to be left alone my brain is FILLED with ideas and concepts I gotta shake loose and I do not care what anyone says it is happening and it is happening yesterday. And don’t piss somebody off with fantastic legs what are you stupid??
guess what? I am funny and I am fast and I am nuts and I am making room for zany that put me on the fucking map Rob! You got that?
