watch canada’s next top model tonite me and fil are on it.

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gone pervy

more on fil’s porno flickr of course. mine too i guess.

Ryan: did you blog anything what’s fundamentally revolutionary today or funny?

me: kinda

30 minutes later

Ryan: ok you were right
i check yr blog like every time i check my email these days
your name’s damn well an ad for it

me: yep

Ryan: i liked that face in the crowd bit i think it’s like part of yr job as an ex to make sure they don’t get over you probably a lame ego thing

me: yes totally, i am not friends with so many guys cos of their new girls its insane

Ryan: in a sense you could take that as a compliment

me: and even some of them like me and tolerate me but i sense the resentment and at some point there is always the talk where they tell me their feelings about me

Ryan: in that it sounds like those guys gave you glowing reviews gives the new bitches something to worry about you know?

me: yeah well mostly i treated them like garbage in the end and their peanut minds blocked that bit from their memory
well my thing is all about MOVING ON
not moving back in like other girls i know

Ryan: yeah goodcall

me: i guess having a blog up there for them to obsess over adds to it

Ryan: helps

me: and even dudes i was never intimate with their new ladies dont feel me

Ryan: sometimes i do miss the “friend” part of an ex-girlfriend but it’s worth it sometimes to watch the bridge burn down

me: generally most girls decide to not dig me, it’s been that way my whole life

Ryan: naw that’s just a girl-thing

me: it’s foreign to people, well dudes, like fil, who everyone likes, not to understand he thinks im just making it up

Ryan: girls seem to like you, i had an ex who did

me: yeah well they either hate me or fiercely dig me
which is refreshing

Ryan: fiercely
me: like protective

Ryan: yes well i wouldn’t feel too slighted probably this new girl saw buddy’s eyes light up at your name and then total-defence-warning-signals go off for them and they just wanna keep that slut away whereas if you weren’t anything to care about in the first place then wouldn’t they be like oh hey i’ve heard so much about you

me: yeah well im brazen i guess
i totally busted his heart like three times so i guess she heard all about it

Ryan: i dunno the individual stories but if you can generalise it’s that people take sides, usually their own sides? with you it’s public cause yr blog but i’m small-town so it’s public too, you’re not one of those chicks who kisses one guy and eyes up another are ya? i know lately sometimes i think this girl i’ve been with is just wanting to broadcast it to like well her ex she was with for like 4 years so anyway it’s a turn-on but what i’m saying is i don’t understand women and their motives

me: i am loyal to my bf i do not fuck around

Ryan: sorry i didn’t mean an accusation i just don’t know you is all i just always suspected that like..if a girl says “i have a boyfriend” X amount of times, eventually it means i DON’T have a boyfriend not necessarily you

me: i never ever say bf

Ryan: yr blog should be evidence enough that you’re spoken for and happy that past lives need not haunt anyone

me: right