i am going to be in a music video today for a band called major maker. i’m suppose to dress like a VICE do. i’m kinda getting anxious about it, not that i don’t already own ten hundred amazing shirts to wear it’s just i need to wear the ULTIMATE ONE! we have to bring extra shit for options, i don’t have a bag for this, melody has it, so i’ma roll in there with a huge paper shopping bag. no i will probably go buy some new clothes and a bag. sigh. life, it’s just…so, hard.

fil is jealous and sad that he is not going to be in the video and i said well they want young looking people which totally didn’t help and i was all uhhh i meant they want dirtbags? cool people? se;fiewY*POYTP. fil is too much of an adult i think. i think they want bitches only.

i hope i don’t get super nervous and pull out at the last minute like i do for EVERYTHING. ok i won’t.

in grade 8 i was on the track team, every morning i went to school early to run around the school the park the arena, down by the river, well mostly once the teacher ran by and the do-gooders it was more of an amble. anyway, i was a part of it for several months. i don’t even know why, i think one of my fat friends wanted to join and i was like ok i will too.

so the morning of our track event race against other schools i was “sick” in bed and my mom was like GET THE FUCK UP YOU SPENT MONTHS TRAINING FOR THIS AND NOW YOU’RE NOT GOING TO GO!?!

it was never my intention of racing or having any part of a competition, the way i saw it was totally different than how the rest saw it. to them i was suppose to be a “team player” and had to show my support. fuck that, i barely broke a sweat every few mornings a week i am not fucking running.

so yeah, i ended up going, i got a pretty decent place, and our girl’s team which i was a “team player” for got first place and everyone was all hey lauren aren’t you glad you went afterall, wow, first place! and like yeah guys i can tooootally sleep at nite now, thanks.

one morning we saw a pack of foxes by the river, that was cool. they have long pointy noses.

the end.