fil adopted me a wolf for christmas!

holy cute! so one less wolf is going to be slaughtered and made into a teepee and now i own a wolf!

fucking cool!

also

i now own napoleon dynamite and a blythe wallet and slippers and a jacket and later i’m going to my nana’s and she got me for kris kringle so this means i will prolly get a sweater that is fluorescent yellow with stop signs and tornadoes on it.

oh no wait. i told her to get me a gift certificate for chapters.

yay me.

i bought my cousin the new douglas coupland book and i forgot to read it first. meh. i also got him some book about all the evilest people in history.

very festive.

fil went over to his parents’ and i am here with the cat and the cat just made a sigh. once my brother gets his crap together he’s swinging by and then we go to nana’s/papa’s for hours of amusing dysfunction.

i swear if my nana calls me fat again i’m gonig to be not pleased.

for christmas i got my period.

!!!

happy festivus.

today is going to be a long and sober one.

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f to that. i’m starting now.

oh, aimee emailed and is homesick and the only time she feels not lonely is when everybody is asleep and she can be alone with the liquor cabinet.

we’ve all decided that after new year’s we’re not drinking.

my anorexia figure is all gone now.

i hate looking at my body again. i just want to wear blankets and dumpy sweaters and speak swedish, i dunno.

yesterday i met two lesbos after dinner, over dessert. one is alex’s cousin. and i said, fil, the only thing i can think about is them doing it and he is like yah, me too. and i kept looking at one of them from across the table and everytime we made eye contact i thought, ok, she knows what i am thinking about, i have to get out of here. so i went to the bathroom with my wine and then stayed in the other room or on the porch smoking until they left.