i was planning to visit my grandma today but my dad said she is doing alright so i should go tomorrow instead. i’m kinda miffed that she isn’t in the hospital in the town she has lived in for the last 46 years, there weren’t enough beds.

today i feel like eating a lot of cheese and more hot salami and writing my depressing modern-day style, choose-your-own-adventure story i hope i at least add a little more to it.

willheim is going to buy my painting that makes me happy and inspires me to make some more art.

i wonder what we will do tonite.

i want and not want to plan my birthday party, i have a feeling it will coincide with funeral-happenings or something who knows. be prepared for a possible last-minute gathering or a postponed event. thanks all for your condolences and such i’d give you my address for sympathy cards but i don’t want to take the attention away from my dad right now i dunno how he’d react to a million I’M SORRY ABOUT YOUR GRANDMA RAYMI cards you know, when it’s his mom et al.

anyway.

i haven’t gotten a new stud yet.