JG is the best NME i know right now. he lives in fucking kansas, like war town. ble ble sdhfbsdflgj!!!!!!!!!1 and he sez all that war shit before me and after me and whaetevr. hi jg




photos say a lot on saturday. especially when fags dont have adobe on their pc emachines whatever that means and so paint primitively makes my photos way cooler. thanks version 1.0 of every fucking thing.


this is my last layme day nite whatever nad its 5. perfect right on time. now it just gets colder and dark and i cant find any shoes so im going to crap in my pants and walk bare foot shit house drunk styles perhaps……to the whatever mobile and be like


anti stop following me.


i miss jamie and coolhandluke and other gay people


jamaicanneighbors.blogspot.crsegfsd yofkgsdvlcj say hi to the mad scientist. and then that guy was dressed like lego adn then that otehr guy who lives in my area code who wants me to be moer adult by more porn… this is the homo squad oh yeh julia too, that one who is from iceland or something and likes to roll around in hay fields with guys and then she is picture paranoid and i can look exactly like her elf face sometimes. antyway,. youre all jerks . shout out also to ryan h of the asshole persuasion…..howtoliveyerlifemyway.blorksput….and then that blonty guy again


hi esthero


1/7/03 – 6:01:46 pm toronto time.




ok lets think of all the nice things i did today. i chipped in money for uhh, dinner and groceries and change for weed and some mushrooms and i gave a bit of my tuna sammich away and i helped push the car out of the snowbank and tried to drive it back and forth out of it too and i didn’t yell at the cat too much when it jumped onto my naked back and planted its claws into my flesh oh-help-me-lord and i only snapped at the guy at tim horton’s once when he was going to charge me 50 cents for mayo on my tuna sammich and made me feel obese.




http://www.truckermagazine.com i hope ill one day stop harassing people in toronto and then maybe one day realise i wasnt ever being mean. just honest and angry and pissed off that i walked into this coolness trap and know why raymitheminx.com sucks, and why i might want to have some whatever trucker wants to be anti-vice. homo mag and never wanted the alias of raymi or the minx just some photo of me being a jerk at that art system drinknig beers go go dancing thing and then no one wanted to say hi to me whatevs. it was kinda ok kinda too neurotic but the dangerous part was the coolest , in retrospect. i guess but i never saw a copy or got that issue… etc etc


hi everyone. finklestein/stien ? i can neevr remember. spaniard. alex/sarah….chris////someone else, that ryan bigge guy, that jim munroe nme stuff from cali and why it’s scarey as shit here. um yeh. and ebm too. even the mean ones, especially the accidental mean ones and then the coolest dance contests and that guy who looks like nick who is funny and mods suck still.


hhahahha i never even owned a record. im harassing myself so no one needs to look at me or shit talk kuz u know, ill cuss you out or suck cock or just be like just stop talking about me i hate you and i know you like to gossip so yah say hi whenever and stop making me feel ashamed for feeling guilty for being cool and lame and insecure all things everyone, everyone suffers from.


…….. and go somewhere else until a fucking police arrests me……anyway, ill be back soon for more anti usa gossip foto binges. u are allowed to go tothe keg party im missing u prolly know where but mebbe not. call me or ill cal u or email. yep. i know you have fuck house net connex. i guess anna says hi from berlin or something. shes hot. no, saucy…


please all refer too kool-aid.com with me now it just saved antis ribcage and stuff….. sorta..well i strongly disagree with their methods of ratios for canadians forced to go to 7/11 about 3a fucking m or something…….anyway, koolaid i want that blue favoured kind i almost choked and died on kuz of that saving silverman movie from two scenes of funny shit imultaneously and stuff and like yah, i want that blue whi packets of it. party packets. fuck being like britney spears and having busloads. it should be everywhere princess papers pimps and crackheads go.


whats the deal???


yah kuz…


use it for yeh public raymi save us domain stiorage 3 seater 3 boy code muky junky have til sunday dave one go to raymitheminx.com please




skinsnational anthem for skidnation.blogspot.com i think you guys might want to look at this website today. maybe it’s an inside tip so…psss phhhshshsh heheh eheheh heh ehhehh. done.




bwaaahaa…uhhh..heh.. i keep thinking it’s like some guy pissing..

this guy needs to have more photos of some dog like whatever. or something.

yah. he’s a buddy therefore if he freely adverts in my shoutouts/HIBill!s thats cool. and then i might follow up with an insulting post and then i might link his ass again and be like, this is all for free, thanks to the internet and bloggers and ill gates! and yah every mcdonalds happy fucknig meal i ever ate…etc etc durrdurrr]…. niiiice. and then i go, ew blogs are so gay. and then im like what is so interesting about his blog other than photos of funny shit i just scroll right thru it. pretend im liek japanese and a boy and a retard and like i love seizures but i liek it digitally optimized and then i want a few fuck shti niggers thrown in and maybe some tits and etc etc etc tdcvkljsd vgkdfhgj;hdfvgjk;ldfuivgsdvui; make it cool but shitty but dont rip me off. im so bored of this 1999 stuff but i like that i see more stuff emerging all over. so yeh imthe free UN blog ambassador. thanks Mcbarky go Mcfuck yourself [ehheheh. be not insulted please] i like being hilarious because im done being bored of myself and ebing indoors. im ready to throw sand in my faggy friend’s eyes again and lioke, fuck boyfriends and literally i meant like to hell with em, i just want to be outside and bring a piece of under water spy camera / roaming wireless CIA laptops in hotel rooms etc etc etc free all over the globe….trotters…..GO LEAFS!!! and then it’s the sens, gavin files fickinnis!!!!!!!!!!


ps – fucknig was always cooler than fucking, anyways.


double puh puh ess – hanging out alone always sucks and rules cause butthead said that stuff had to suck in order for you to recognize or rather, distinguish what was cool and what sucked and the difference like you guys are all fags and i am not the fag or i am mayonaise and you’re all fucking ranch lakers west coast bling blong poor Fuuuuhhhhkiiin………


go pats.




i hope i get to skateboard some more on carpet today after im thru fagboarding [longboarding...] the cool thing[s] about this zip code are as follows


1. im still 1983, march 31 therefore im a kid and fuck them i only want to wear bathrobes with bloodstains over to the variety store and then cuss out on rich spoiled piece of shit chillen and then talk to the spics who are builing like 6 homes two second from the mattress on the floor of this zip code (in a nutshell, thats why this zipcode rules.)




2. they despise me kuz im literally the foreigner who went to the crazzy house and was like fffuuuuuck YOU all along to everyone. equally.

3. when i want food, please gimme it .

4. 2 dimensional foodstuffs aka , kraft singles slices, leather gummy stuff, jerky…… are good and allthose other fad diets suck. you can shocve them under doors. and make your teeth turn into little yellow chiclets like mine and i like it when aq sharp piece of jjerky stabs somewhere on the inside of my head like in my mouth i mean, yah, that sucks.


————————–

im too skinny but i still have curves. and total black hockey hairs on my legs and caterpillars growing on my forehead, liek two of them i think wops might refer to them as eyebrows they like to shave oiff their faces and then nicely draw in new ones and then if theyre in a car and anti hits a speedbump that shit like fuck, you might stab yourself in the fucking eye or some shit.!!!!!!!1 and asfhklg asofgsdf


——————————-

im that dumb ass younger sister you all had and wanted to bang or didnt have and i was liek fuck you assssholes i want to look at that playboy we found or yeh porn tell me abuot it oh thats my troll u asshole dont throw it in a tree! ok lets SMOKE cigarettes. yeh. they suck and we got busted and then everyone like was paranoid but i was all it’s cool man ill just like pretend im a young little girl and yeh i heard my older brother did it first (he’s 2 yrs older) and yeh, shifting the blame is so awesome. why? i was the youngest and only daughter and i have a bro and a dad and a mum and no one punched each other in the face ever. no one was raped. canadians dont bother with that shit when we all live in town homes in the fucking early 80′s and like, they just want their kids to hang out and then there is this one black kid named o’neil and we all liked him but his younger brother sucked cause he made me have to shove the shit out of him when he tried to bite me or drool and im like, FUCK YOU! and he’s all like 2 or 3 and im like 4 or 5? and then i rode my bike right to o’neils house once my dad took those fucking asshole training wheels off, finally! and im like, damn that ride was so boring because oneil lived maybe 5 units over? i knew immediately how to fucking ride two wheels but i got to be a lazy ass fucking princess with that gay shitty pink colors…etc etc thats why girls now, love hello kitty.


but i was too busy walking to the donut store and drinking cokes or burger kind delites…..spening like ten dollars or even 4 dollars on my best guy loser fuckhead friends…..why? kuz real life people helped me realisethat music is too melancholy


so thats when they were all like, blur SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and im like fuck you white trash fags and then i


yah


hehehhehhhh. i can beat anyone at anything, start small. lets do science first. i need to learn about john travolta’s religion and then i need to know more about guns and then ill look at some pics of annonymous people at the google.com free image searches and be all ahahahahhaahha go hereer…dfhuklg lbv bwaahhahahahahhahaa go there…


my racing thoughted mind, well, yah, that it does.

modern lithium im too hyper for it

aka depakote or something. this is why i waited so long to balance out the gay sad and self loathing kuz eventually everyone writes and theyre all yah i like you…but…..and then yoiu are like ok fien i DO sound too self loathing and thats kuz my real life shit is too too heavy and then people assume im doing like mountains of cocaine and buffets of vaginas…..im really really mad at a lot of people in real life, in internet and then im mad at birds because yah they are selfish [ hehehh ]


tho i miss a lot of people.sdf.sd. fsd. but you know this isnt that – i shot my fucking head off,here is a letter for courtney love to read and explain why i left my kid and her and ten jillion fat girls crying…..” type thing. you prolly know what it said.


death and losing someone, especially like that fag and then everyone is like oh duuuuuude it was the bitches fault and then etc etc




dont ever do that. EVer. that woman is the 1. equivalent to yoko fono 2. mum of frances bean cobain and 3. dont bring up shit that foo fighters and krist nova-selica are all like, fuck you nirvana fans..etc etc leave thenm alone. you wnat to know things? read the ten million pieces of past books, if youre lucky to find whats still in print available…etc etc, you accidental jackasses and yer love and worship of a few bands will fucking make you explode in the end. pretend i actually am stating like, truths here and then you can LOL later. ahahhah. hehehehhheh. whatever.


have tact. have taste. realise that the internet sucks, everything you read, from any place blog journal advertisement spam mail, it fucking sucks a lot and it makes people think they deserve to ask questions like, “tell me what was the last thing that kurt cobain said to you on the phone, kriost..?” what the fuck do you tell someone when they ask you how a song makes you feel and something internal? soemthing you dont deserve but you do. direct questions? direct ansers. like zen and tao-ism and all that te ching homo monk shit. jeet kune do too, yep yep…….


fuck off literally and then you’ll get a second chance to explain exactly why, you’re sorry for shit talking people like courtney love.


you are allowed to do it but not ever be all yah, she is like wooooooahhh drunk and has bruises…ahahha track marks, perfect…..


fuck you all. how the fuck would you be acting these days if your fucking (famous or not) /man/lover/girl/mate put a fucking shotgun to ‘er face and blew it onto the walls in your garage and you were like in paris and then the whole world is like waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh and then you are so sobbing and left with a baby and dont get it yourself?


depression is the answer. it kills. sucky family syndrome. deal with it then.


let the guy burn out for his time. media and “celeb -BRIT – y – dum ” yeh it can do that to you. captain OBVIOUS!this is why everyone hates press and paparazzis and fucking yanks and wasps and french peopel and italians and spics and jews and yeh.


im that NME that you know, knows a lot and knows exactly how to share it with ya’ll via any means across nations, [ tv, radio print, type, net, stores, sejkfh sdlfdb]…….


i dont want to be neurotic anymore. im not in a hurry to write a pithy book yet. im doing short story volume things series i dunno i dont care. one at a time. yes with haikus yep with scratches yeh with a dvd to throw in there of some dv footage of me being obese and trying to break my knees and jump thru drywall and then im singing karaoke and slurring and trying to beat up some fag in a bar…dunno which one. hahaha.


Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation.


j_petersen@

what? hello?

big bad anti says:

hi

big bad anti says:

sorry

j_petersen@com says:

i never said i may be seeing you around

big bad anti says:

whatevs

big bad anti says:

be less assuming

big bad anti says:

you dont know raymi

big bad anti says:

or laura

big bad anti says:

whatevs

big bad anti says:

… ?

j_ says:

i think i know laura a lot better than you do. anyway i realized that i did say that, its because i was typing out a song after you got offline

big bad anti says:

lauren knows her

big bad anti says:

more

big bad anti says:

so

big bad anti says:

no offense

big bad anti says:

dont be mad at me

j_pet.com says:

cool. are you lauren?

big bad anti says:

no’

big bad anti says:

shes outside

big bad anti says:

trying to long board, skateboard

says:

raymi?

big bad anti says:

and everyone

big bad anti says:

fuck………

big bad anti says:

you

big bad anti says:

pffffft

big bad anti says:

bye then

j_petersen says:

rayyymii

big bad anti says:

BE less assuming JEN

big bad anti says:

jenny

big bad anti says:

whatevs

big bad anti says:

.

j.com says:

! raymi

big bad anti says:

i’ve ” changed”

big bad anti says:

big bad anti says:

tell me who you think this is

big bad anti says:

who?

j_petersen@.com says:

i think this is raymi and john

j_petersen@.com says:

raymi first

big bad anti says:

wrong

big bad anti says:

lauren is at the car

j_petersen@.com says:

liar. this is raymi

big bad anti says:

fuck off

big bad anti says:

you dont know

big bad anti says:

anyone

big bad anti says:

therefore dont assume

j_petersen@.com says:

yes i do. but ok, ill fuck off

big bad anti says:

not literally, ok?

big bad anti says:

pretend it doesnt matter

big bad anti says:

and we both like you

big bad anti says:

and dont bring up past shit

j_petersen@.com says:

you type differently

big bad anti says:

big bad anti says:

jesus

big bad anti says:

shut up.

big bad anti says:

and keep

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typing

j_petersen@.com says:

hahaaa

big bad anti says:

pretend

big bad anti says:

im bill fucknig gates

big bad anti says:

now i was in the middle of being angry at the world

big bad anti says:

and i dotn mean to s talk

big bad anti says:

your ex bf

big bad anti says:

my sloppy second

j_petersen@com says:

im angry at the world

big bad anti says:

wanna shit talk?

big bad anti says:

tell raz-mi why ———– wont be referred to as clickity.

j_petersen@com says:

i feel like offing myself, thats why i was mad in the first place

big bad anti says:

good.

big bad anti says:

i like statements of anger the best

j_petersen@com says:

ps i know hes right there

big bad anti says:

ps

big bad anti says:

yes

big bad anti says:

yep he knows

big bad anti says:

whatve

big bad anti says:

what do u

big bad anti says:

call him?

big bad anti says:

ex loser head?

big bad anti says:

me too.

big bad anti says:

hes right a lot and i am too.

big bad anti says:

but sometimes

big bad anti says:

we are mean to each otehr

j_petersen@com says:

hey, so did you say whatevs before you came to CA?

big bad anti says:

by mistake

big bad anti says:

i used it as a ploy

big bad anti says:

j_petersen@com says:

whatevs dude

big bad anti says:

dopesnt matter

big bad anti says:

i use[ed] it pre post during

big bad anti says:

etc etc

j_petersen@com says:

i dig the brackets yee bra

big bad anti says:

id rather speak in my own messenger

big bad anti says:

f him

big bad anti says:

i’m mopreeast coast than you

big bad anti says:

sdfjkl r

big bad anti says:

he wrote that

big bad anti says:

while he was coughnig himself

big bad anti says:

a new back

big bad anti says:

ahhahahaha

big bad anti says:

hes a ffffag

big bad anti says:

type faster jenny

big bad anti says:

pelase

big bad anti says:

please

big bad anti says:

or balance me out

j_petersen@com says:

of course you are. i’m ninth generation CA thoguh, my people wre rapists and conqustadors

big bad anti says:

dont feel like killing yerself

big bad anti says:

how can i help you

big bad anti says:

what

j_petersen@com says:

i dont any more, i was just having a low moment

big bad anti says:

\splain in canadian please

big bad anti says:

ahhaha

big bad anti says:

dont be sad

big bad anti says:

lol

big bad anti says:

rofl

big bad anti says:

i swear

big bad anti says:

we miss you

big bad anti says:

i neevr met you

j_petersen@com says:

it was aboot drinkin too much and isolating

big bad anti says:

yet

big bad anti says:

so fuck off

big bad anti says:

on the east coast tilthen

big bad anti says:

were flying back

big bad anti says:

you gfiot yer buddy jon

big bad anti says:

faggotbreath

big bad anti says:

etc etc

big bad anti says:

but you got me too

j_petersen@com says:

i have to go convince my poetry teacher to drive me to the country now

big bad anti says:

and jews

big bad anti says:

and rapists??????

big bad anti says:

get back to yer ancestry pls

big bad anti says:

why

big bad anti says:

fuck him

j_petersen@com says:

spanish mexican danish

big bad anti says:

wait

big bad anti says:

how old is he?

big bad anti says:

how old are you?

j_petersen@com says:

34

big bad anti says:

u like to fuck older men?

j_petersen@com says:

23

big bad anti says:

i use too’

big bad anti says:

jon

big bad anti says:

hmmmm

big bad anti says:

23

big bad anti says:

good

big bad anti says:

you exactly like shannon hartman

big bad anti says:

remember that name

j_petersen@com says:

johm used to have the loveliest apt in long beach

big bad anti says:

youre like the babe best friend in brooklyn who lived in the room next door to me

big bad anti says:

i never fucked her

big bad anti says:

when you fuck a friends= sumtimes its like whatever

j_petersen@com says:

you never fucked me either

big bad anti says:

i fucked with laura

big bad anti says:

blehh

big bad anti says:

we hate each other

j_petersen@com says:

yeah

big bad anti says:

[hate, not literally]

big bad anti says:

we know each otehr too much

big bad anti says:

i know i never fucked you

big bad anti says:

retard

big bad anti says:

ROFL

big bad anti says:

j_petersen@com says:

i have to go seduce a teacher at the gramercy park hotel bar now. plus put on eyeliner

big bad anti says:

emoticons RULE

big bad anti says:

GOOD

big bad anti says:

tell me abuot tyhe girly seductive shit

big bad anti says:

why?

big bad anti says:

this fagbreath

big bad anti says:

ignores me too much

j_petersen@com says:

because i like him

big bad anti says:

no ossense

j_petersen@com says:

im mad at john

big bad anti says:

why

big bad anti says:

shit talk to razzy razzmi

big bad anti says:

aka jazzy jeff

big bad anti says:

i invented blogs first

j_petersen@com says:

hell tell you. or just wait till he and ryan get on the phone togetherm they gossip

big bad anti says:

so you want back into the blog clique

j_petersen@com says:

wiggety wack

big bad anti says:

what do u want????

j_petersen@com says:

i want to go into the city

big bad anti says:

how can i get you – work/ famoos / more sex from un faggoty poetry teachers…etc etc

big bad anti says:

go there

big bad anti says:

gramercy

big bad anti says:

i dont think i went there

big bad anti says:

yet

j_petersen@com says:

im a free agent . gots to go

big bad anti says:

so talk faster

big bad anti says:

type out loud

big bad anti says:

one

big bad anti says:

word

big bad anti says:

at a time

j_petersen@com says:

i

big bad anti says:

am

j_petersen@com says:

have

big bad anti says:

i

j_petersen@com says:

to

j_petersen@com says:

go

j_petersen@com says:

get

big bad anti says:

taking

big bad anti says:

up

big bad anti says:

too

j_petersen@com says:

teacher

big bad anti says:

much

big bad anti says:

of yer stoopid slut time???????????????

j_petersen@com says:

HOT

FOR

TEACHER

big bad anti says:

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

big bad anti says:

tacvher sex

j_petersen@com says:

bye. have to go

big bad anti says:

good!

big bad anti says:

big bad anti says:

aww

big bad anti says:

please

j_petersen@com says:

aw

big bad anti says:

awwwwwwwwwwwww

big bad anti says:

see

big bad anti says:

you fucking heart breaker faker

big bad anti says:

i know youi

big bad anti says:

and everyone

big bad anti says:

the best

big bad anti says:

so

big bad anti says:

1.

big bad anti says:

fuck his head off

j_petersen@com says:

im fucking blushing. have fun in my hometown

big bad anti says:

2. go to where some fuking getaway

big bad anti says:

for the weekend

big bad anti says:

3. fucknig slur like saucy sailor

j_petersen@com says:

im homesick

big bad anti says:

4. i got arrested

big bad anti says:

twice

big bad anti says:

for the frist time

j_petersen@com says:

you guys should drive by my house and pet the kitties

big bad anti says:

kuz

j_petersen@com says:

cause you sang to loud

big bad anti says:

….”it was the best of times…..it was the BLURST!!!1 of timees?!”

big bad anti says:

NICE

big bad anti says:

duude

big bad anti says:

i haev awesome storied to tell your stupid homesick ass

big bad anti says:

but u might have to mebbe meet us here or there

j_petersen@com says:

I am going now

big bad anti says:

i dont care

big bad anti says:

or in the uk

big bad anti says:

where the fuck do u wanan go next?

j_petersen@com says:

come to ny

big bad anti says:

we’ll try

big bad anti says:

where do u wanna poarty with us for a few days

j_petersen@com says:

i want to go to the fucking reading where my teacher is

big bad anti says:

in the world

big bad anti says:

think abuot…. [ honey moon]

big bad anti says:

or recpetion

j_petersen@com says:

brooklyn

big bad anti says:

and youre the real family

big bad anti says:

by association

j_petersen@com says:

work out details later

big bad anti says:

loOK!

big bad anti says:

listen

j_petersen@com says:

go

big bad anti says:

fuck brooklyn

j_petersen@com says:

now

big bad anti says:

lemme tell you why everything sucks

big bad anti says:

and then

big bad anti says:

why it also doesnt

big bad anti says:

then go get laid

j_petersen@com says:

love you, no i have to go

big bad anti says:

which train u taking’

big bad anti says:

???

j_petersen@com says:

im two hours late

big bad anti says:

ill tell you best route

big bad anti says:

mebbe

j_petersen@com says:

r to the w

big bad anti says:

fine

big bad anti says:

good

j_petersen@com says:

have fun

big bad anti says:

hmmmmmmmmmm

j_petersen@com says:

sorry

big bad anti says:

i know f train the best

big bad anti says:

why

big bad anti says:

go to williamsbrug

j_petersen@com says:

you should have started impersonatng jhn earlier

big bad anti says:

mebbe

big bad anti says:

and fucking get arrested

big bad anti says:

yer 23

j_petersen@com says:

no, city

big bad anti says:

im 20

big bad anti says:

still illegal

big bad anti says:

in yer

big bad anti says:

zippy fode

big bad anti says:

902..

big bad anti says:

something something

j_petersen@com says:

902 – - babay

big bad anti says:

woah

big bad anti says:

u fucking

big bad anti says:

assholes

big bad anti says:

live so close to eahc

big bad anti says:

other

big bad anti says:

assholes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

j_petersen@com says:

talk to you later

big bad anti says:

fine bye

big bad anti says:

sdjfl jsdgd\

j_petersen@com says:

i have to gooooooooooooooooo

big bad anti says:

j_petersen@com says:

now

big bad anti says:

BYE!

big bad anti says:

slut

j_petersen@com says:

bye

big bad anti says:

sluuuuuuuuuuuuuts

j_petersen@com says:

slag

big bad anti says:

rule

big bad anti says:

.

big bad anti says:

get shitty.

j_petersen@com says:

done

big bad anti says:

.

big bad anti says:

good.

big bad anti says:

fine.;